The Diary of Antoine Roquentin

We’re all just fumbling in the dark — for a heart of hearts

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> Garbage – Queer> Chemical Brothers – Let Forever BeJune 20, 2003: Today was kind of cool, I woke up at about one AM, but I didn’t try to go back to sleep. I wanted to read more on Atlas Shrugged (I’ve been reading it for months on end in Dad’s cheap-o 8pt font paperback), [...]

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> Jennifer Lopez – Let’s Get LoudJune 19, 2003: Today was kind of fun, I woke up at 4am, ravenously thirsty, drank a quarter gallon of plain soymilk, went back to sleep. Rose was bothering me, and my mom came down to use the bathroom so I told her that Rose wanted to be walked. [...]

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> Basement Jaxx – Yo-YoJune 18, 2003: I woke up late, at about 10PM, and watched moronic sitcoms and early morning news all night until about six when Mom and Grandma were up. They had kind of a bit of an early breakfast, I think I had a waffle or something. I bugged my mom [...]

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June 17, 2003: I absolutely hate my mother. She is the biggest egocentric pain in my ass I’ve ever known. I’ve been wanting to do my hair (color it black) for months, and she is just so “busy” that she can’t find 30 fucking minutes out of her fucking busy life to do my hair? [...]

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June 16, 2003: Flipped through the channels for hours, caught a Seinfeld, a Just Shoot me, and later in the night a Beastmaster. God, the guy that plays Dar is so fucking hot. I wrote in the book I was using for an abbreviated journal “You know you’re going crazy when you’re watching BeastMaster at [...]