I’m wearing black lipstick, I feel pretty.

>Nine Inch Nails - Physical (THE FUCKING BEST SONG EVER)
>Methods Of Mayhem (feat. Lil’ Kim, Tommy Lee, and someone else) - Get Naked
>Kittie - Do You Think I’m A Whore
>Monster Magnet - Space Lord

Just watched SLC Punk with the directors’ commentary track, the non-sexual scenes of The Doom Generation, and the love scene (no, not sex scene) from Blade Runner. I’m beginning to feel like love fucking sucks. Or rather, love is fucking as ephemeral as an orgasm. Or maybe I just haven’t met mr. right. If I do meet Mr. Right, we’ve GOT to fuck to Physical. I am now fucking in love with Physical. I want to party, I want to mosh really bad, I want to beat the shit out somebody (especially myself), I just feel like I’m sinking into this pile of shit and mediocrity, and that it’s fucking taking hold, and that I’ve got to bust out. I hope they start up those little concerts they used to have, it’ll be good. Maybe I should start my own band. I wonder what I’d call it…probably something hella-obscene. Like, Fuck Festival or Anal Regurgitation…lol Maybe purfekshun or Dead Stars…I wonder if that’s taken. Too bad New Model Army is taken, I love that. I need more…cool friends. Christine is like, the only cool person I know. Oh, and Royce, but he’s a whore and I don’t see him around anymore. I’m a whore too though…but I at least try to find mr. right, he’ll just fuck anyone anywhere… I’d add something to that…if you want to know ask me. Well, I want to mosh but there’s nobody here, I want to get in a fight…god I am so fucking bored. Oh, I saw Ann a few days ago…I showed her where the bathrooms were, we didn’t get to talk much. I’ve been meaning to write that I’ve been having a lot of dreams that take place in/on space and space stations or space ships…maybe not space ships exactly, but uber-modern places. I think it’s from reading Super-Cannes. I finished it last night, it had such a good ending. I was disappointed like, halfway through, but the last half was worth it. Well, my hands hurt, I should go to bed after I watch some TV, maybe that’ll turn off my mayhem genes.