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Yesterday was really fun. I hung out during the day and put up those shear white curtain looking things I got at St. Vincent’s (thrift store) and put red paint all over them with my hands, they look so great, a bloody canopy hanging around my bed. I put red paint all over my sink and took some great pictures–well I think they’re great, I have yet to have them developed. I’m so into this photography thing. I will be very angry if those pictures don’t come out. I wish I could have focused it–the camera is all automatic and everything–but I guess I can’t complain, I didn’t have to buy it. If they come out, I’ll be happy. I finished the roll of film, and talked to my mom for a while, she called me. She gave me Aunt Anna’s address, so I wrote her a letter later that day. It was three pages in 12 point double-spaced. I think it might be too long, but she’ll enjoy getting a letter from me. I reall miss Aunt Anna, she’s like 80, I love talking to her. I had to censor my letter though–Jordan became Amy, and Taggart’s gender was changed. I mean, it doesn’t greatly change the meaning. And I don’t really want to disturb them. I should write Gail a letter too–but I haven’t gotten around to it. I don’t think I will any time soon. Well anyway, I went outside to mail it and Lisa was out feeding the horses, she gave us some chocolate chip cookies (my favorite!) and I asked her for the canister for the roll of film that was in the camera she lent me, and she said she’d bring it tomorrow (today). My dad cashed my financial aid check, so I can buy my books today. I’m going to go over to the bookstore right before it opens–they open at nine and my first class is at nine-thirty. I hope I can get that all taken care of. And I need to ask Dan whether I got into English 1B. And I need to find out when it meets, I think I missed the first two days. Crapness. It was my own laziness. I need to get my shit together today. Oh, I’m wearing my beautiful silver tie I got when Daniela and I were driving around Tuesday. It’s so cool. I’m going to have Jordan retie it when he stops by after five so it will be pristine for photography. Well, night before last Jordan came over and we had a milieu in the barn where he ended up losing his glasses in the hay, so last night he came over to get them and to hang out for a while. It was so embarrassing, I called him for the first time and I couldn’t remember his real name–I was all “can I speak to–” for like a minute and she was all “Joe?” and I’m all “yeah…” I could tell by her voice that she thought it was funny. He came over around six and I was cleaning my room and we kind of started the process of having sex and I was kind of taken aback–I was all “do we have to have sex every time you come over” and he understood–he said that we could not have sex for a while if I wanted and I told him that I didn’t mind having sex it was just that it would be nice to watch a movie or talk every once in a while. I lit some candles in my sanctum (my bed inside the canopy) and we cuddled and talked for a few hours, he told me what he’d done with his life after his 18th birthday, it turns out he was a Mormon missionary for two years. He was going to college but he came out and his dad kicked him out–it was an amazing story. I remember telling him a few stories though I can’t remember what they were. We had a great conversation, I feel really comfortable with him. He’d just learned how to do facial massages so he gave me one, it felt really good. Royce called (oh wait, this deserves some explanation. On Sunday Jordan, Kevin, Ben and I were driving around and we decided to go over to Royce’s and we hung out for a while and I gave Royce my number) Well anyway, Royce called and we talked for a bit, he was bored and wanted to do something. Jordan and I were going to get gas at nine (my dad said Jordan had to leave at nine) so we said we’d take him along. He later called and said that he’d made other plans beforehand and had forgotten about them, which was cool. At least he wanted to hang out. Well, at nine Jordan and I drove into town, talking about stuff. Oh, Kelly had been asking me some questions about him so I felt compelled to get to know him better. In regards to books, he said that he loves to read but couldn’t find anything good in the library here (surprise surprise) and he’d never read any of my kind of books so I lent him Brave New World and Fahrenheit 451. I was going to lend him Slaughterhouse-Five instead of Fahrenheit 451 but 451 instills a desire to read in anyone who reads it, so I thought it would be good. I mean, if he likes my tastes in books then he’ll eventually read Vonnegut extensively, so it doesn’t matter. I told him how I felt like I was in a cycle–just like with Andrew, the sex at first, the “maybe we should have so much sex” thing, the good conversations, and of course the loaning books thing. But this feels characteristically different from me and Andrew’s ersatz relationship. Hmm. Well anyway, we got into his car and went to Gas 4 Less, I asked him to be quiet so we could listen to “The Great Below,” and he liked it. I love that song. He told me that he was going to talk to Brian tomorrow and some other stuff. I gave him ten bucks for gas because I live in the middle of nowhere and it’s expensive to come out there. After that we went and walked on the beach–it was so weird it was all dark and windy and overcast and raining but it was still oddly refreshing. After that we went to Denny’s, I had a banana split and he had seasoned fries. We saw one of Brian’s friends there–which could be trouble in the making, but it was okay. He knows one of the guys that works there and the guy came over and talked to us. Apparently Jordan’s sister is refusing her drug tests and has quit NA, and has lost 30 pounds–so they’ve put two and two together *sniff*. I wonder what it’s like to have siblings. I wonder what it’s like to have people one cares about hooked on drugs. Hm. Oh, Starr called me yesterday and I talked with her for a while “you’re my only good friend” she said. If only she knew. I kind of pity her. I guess yesterday was the day of evil “friends,” Stephanie called and later showed up to get her stuff (it was actually really embarrassing, Jordan and I were having a moment on my front porch and they all came walking up. I don’t know if they caught on to what was going on, but Stephanie was really nice and said that I looked good. She gave me this bat earring that I’m wearing today. I gave her her stuff and we talked for a bit, I introduced her to Jordan–and she was all “we should go to club west.” Yeah right. Anyway, her and her boyfriend left and I kissed Jordan goodbye and went to bed. I was wearing my new hoops all yesterday but I took them out this morning because the bat earring didn’t go with the other hoop. I slept on them last night and they didn’t hurt too bad. When I was on the phone with Royce I was begging him to pierce me. I really want him to. I bet he’ll do it for free. I think he still likes me. It was so funny, when we were over there Ben and Jordan were all “god he is so hot!” and I was all “I had sex with him.” Jordan gave me this huge bag full of condoms last night–when he first met me he’s all “I’m a nymphomaniac” but I’m not quite sure. Hmm. Well, this morning I woke up and got dressed and got dropped off here. Jordan’s supposed to show up after five when he gets out of classes and we’re supposed to hang out until my photography class starts at 5:40. I like Diane so far, she seems cool. I have money today so I hope we do our group order today–well actually I might not have much money, depending on the cost of my books. It’s 8:30–the bookstore opens in half an hour. I’m going to go peek over at the smoke box and see if my crew has arrived yet. Nope, nobody. Hmm. I suppose I should migrate into the libary and pay that fee on that late book. And see if Tawna is around. And reply to Danielle.
