The Diary of Antoine Roquentin

We’re all just fumbling in the dark — for a heart of hearts

Month: August, 2004

having an okay day at work

I just finished everything but the community calendar, I just printed out the proof sheet. Oh, just realized I haven’t checked my work e-mail yet. Eh, a buttload of crap that I don’t want to deal with. I’ll deal with it all tomorrow. I e-mailed Molly when I got to work. I can’t wait to [...]

tried to save myself but myself keeps slipping away….

> Marilyn Manson – Get Your Gunn Here are some random excerpts from the posts I’m reading from September 2003: September 3: “The maintenance guy is mowing the lawn on this gargantuan riding lawnmower. With the wind, it looks like he’s riding a huge mechanical stallion against the winds.” September 22: “Casey and I made [...]

life sucks…but what else is new?

> Letters to Cleo – Dangerous Type> Lords of Acid – Cybersex> Nine Inch Nails – Into The Void The Lethargy Club seems to be falling apart. Steve went on a date yesterday, it was vague whether he went with someone he’d just met or with Sammie. I’m guessing the former, but I’m not sure. [...]

I’m sad because I’m a flake

I hate that I was a flake. I haven’t been a flake in so long. It’s such a strange feeling. Letting my classmates down really made me sad. And here is the first weirdness of having Molly as a teacher. It was such a personal thing to not show up and to not have read [...]

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

Today sucked SOOOO much. I had an incredibly shitty day. I went to work after I last blogged, and attacked my work with zeal. I had Subway for lunch, which was yummy. Just when I thought my day was going to be great, Susan came to me with these maps (this was around 3 p.m.) [...]