I’m at home finally and totally bored out of my mind. I thought I had an okay conversation with Steve tonight, but he was probably smiling going “What a bastard.” I wonder if he wrote that post after we talked. I suppose that in the poorly written play that is my life I should have imagined that all the characters but me aren’t flat. So I’m kind of surprised when I do something that pisses somebody off. I posted a comment on Steve’s blog. He was mad about the whole Samantha movies thing. I can’t really control what irks me. I know I have buttons. I should try to list them:
Hypocrisy (Christianity, the Republican/Democratic Parties (Republicans esp.), etc.)
Mass Murder (War, the military, etc.)
I can’t think of any more things that put me into my Strongmad condition, where I can’t reason and my reptile brain just goes “Kill them and they won’t be illogical any more. Do it. Do it.”
It was just a misunderstanding between me and Samantha because I couldn’t not get out of the Strongmad condition when the topic came to that. Well, it’s over now. And honestly, in a month I won’t even remember that I wrote this post. And in a hundred years I won’t remember that I even existed. Because I’ll be dead. But anyway, away from the macabre, today convinced me of one thing totally unrelated to anything:
I HATE MY CLOTHES.
This is the last paycheck that I am going to spend totally on computer components. All I will need to spend is $130 for that video card and $120 for that RAM. And after that all I will buy will be stylish clothes from the Internet. I have been neglecting my apparel so long that I’ve just gotten into the habit of dressing in ugly outfits just because I’ve had nothing to wear for so long. I mean, for just hanging out I have cool clothes, but I don’t have enough clothes that would be okay at work. I need to go to Eureka and do some shopping. Or, better yet, Sacramento. But it would cost more to get there than I would be able to spend on clothes, so the Internet it is. I’m going to have to look through my old link pages to find some of the cool clothing sites that I’ve forgotten. I know I love Mortishas, Gallery Serpentine, and The Black Rose, and The Dark Angel. Omg…I just found these swank PVC pants at The Black Rose that are only £50! J/k. £50 is the rough equivalent of $100.
It’s really difficult to decide whether this stuff is fashionable or not, given that I can’t see the colors. God I’m such a superficial person. But we all are, some of us are just better at hiding it.
I’m IMing Tawna, apparently Amanda had yet another episode. As if this would somehow change the fact that she hasn’t done any work on the Drift? I’ve heard that she feels humiliated. Well, the only way to regain the respect of her friends and the Drift staff is to pull it together and get some work done. Either you’re just going to sit in a corner and mope that nobody likes you for the rest of your life or you’re going to do something, be positive, charge ahead, and have others be motivated by your success. Move forward, not backward.
Oh man, this coat totally rocks my crotch:
http://www.thedarkangel.co.uk/catalogue.php?p=169
It’s incredibly expensive though. I can’t see color on my monitor, maybe it’s ugly. But it says black brocade. It couldn’t be too hideous.
And so I’m back to Hot Topic. They have a ruffle shirt for like $38. But I want that £150 coat. :( Oh well. I think I’m going to post this, ruminate on how much money I want to spend on clothes, then go to sleep. I mean, £150 is like…two weeks in the news dungeon. I don’t think I can swing that. I totally need to make my own clothes. I need to get my hands on some black brocade fabric. I would have it made in the shade if I found that. Well, I’m tired. I think I’m going to go to sleep.