> Garbage – Queer
> Orgy – The Odyssey
> Elastica – S.O.F.T.
Oh man today was really freaking cool, with the exception of the interminable guest lecture in Theatre. I got my video card and I’m playing Diablo II right now! Woot! I can’t seem to get 3D mode to work, but that’s no problem. It looks like the same old Diablo II. Oh I love it. My sorceress Alianora is the SHIZNITE. Okay, back to the game.
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I kept trying to post this last night but Blogger was being a vagina face. So here it is. I think I titled it “tomorrow”
> Angelfish – Suffocate Me
> White Town – Your Woman
Yet another post where I complain about the problems I create. If only I’d been more mature in high school. If only I’d done this instead of that. Then maybe I wouldn’t be alone. Eh, fuck it all. What’s the fucking point? Why bother agonizing over this bullshit? Eh…I can’t make myself believe it. I’m still living in Royce fantasy land. I had a bit of an insight today. I realized why we never went out. We never saw each other, so there was no time to flirt and have clandestine sex acts, no time for him to get stoned and have us make out, no time for anything. There I go again. I just can’t let the past lie. I just can’t admit the possibility that I will be alone for the next year. Until I’m 20. TWENTY. Holy god. I never thought I’d be twenty. As a child, I had a horrible social life and I had no friends. For years and years I planned to kill myself after I got older if it didn’t get better. It did get better, but it never got as good as I wanted it to. I feel like Jessie in ‘Night Mother. But I’m not as old as Jessie was. If I’m thirty and still feel like this, there will be no reason to go on. I’m burning a CD with lots of Garbage on it. I used to be really into Garbage when I was more depressed but I kind of got sick of all their songs. It would be nice to get back into them.
I just went to the website and Garbage is coming out with a new CD in 2005! That’s kinda cool. I’m so fucking bored. Maybe Godot will come tomorrow.
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Tawna is hanging out with Amanda in the lounge. I tried to get done with work early on a nice day–a day perfect for going to the beach, but I guess people had other ideas. I have to steel myself not to write an anti-Tawna/Amanda rant. I’m talking to my mom on the phone. I think Samantha and Steve are here, I parked next to their car. I would go seek them out in the editing room, but my mom is in the middle of a diatribe about our dog and Grandpa and a bunch of other things. It’s best not to interrupt her once she gets going. Okay, she’s done. I’m supposed to call her at 4. I don’t think I’ll remember. But anyway, I should go find my friends.
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Bored bored bored…I’m at work, just finished archiving. I got a photo and a graphic on the front page and a photo on an inside page too. It’s pretty cool. I have to do letters, FYI, and the community calendar. I’m tired. I don’t want to do anything but play computer games and surf the Net. But I have to finish my tasks. Or there will be no more video games for me.
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English 1B was pretty fun today, Molly gave this cool lecture on plagiarism and how our instant push-button take-a-pill-to-make-everything-better copy-and-paste society is making plagiarism easier and easier. There will soon be no more intellecutal property. Lol
Molly: “It’s a brave new world that we live in.”
Me: “With such computers in it.”
She loved the title of my research paper about Waiting for Godot. It was called “Bored to Death.” It totally fits, since in the play the characters are so bored that they contemplate suicide, but it was funny nonetheless. Oh yeah! My speakers shipped today!
http://wwwapps.ups.com/ietracking/tracking.cgi?tracknum=1Z384T0T0358903737
The link won’t work for 48 hours, they said. But my speakers could be here by early next week! That would be incredibly sweet. Tawna went to class and it’s too early to go to work. I need to go to Wal-Mart and get some toiletries, but I hate that place. But I don’t think I can live without q-tips much longer. Hmm. Doom III will be done by the time I get home, but I won’t install it until I have my new video card firmly implanted in its AGP slot. Oh, I can’t WAIT to play all of my cool Diablo II characters that I haven’t played in forever! It’s lame to play Diablo I because it’s so primitive (display-wise) and it’s really easy to hack the characters. With Diablo II all my characters I have actually played to get them to the levels they are at, which is totally cool. I can’t wait!!
I’m watching the trailer for World of Warcraft, a new game from Blizzard Entertainment, the company that makes Diablo. It seems pretty sweet from the trailer, but I haven’t seen any screenshots yet. Hmm, it sounds okay…but it’s one of those massively multiplayer games. Eh. I’m not feeling the love.
I’m bored and I don’t want to go to work. I just want to play computer games.
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> Angelfish – Suffocate Me
> White Town – Your Woman
Yet another post where I complain about the problems I create. If only I’d been more mature in high school. If only I’d done this instead of that. Then maybe I wouldn’t be alone. Eh, fuck it all. What’s the fucking point? Why bother agonizing over this bullshit? Eh…I can’t make myself believe it. I’m still living in Royce fantasy land. I had a bit of an insight today. I realized why we never went out. We never saw each other, so there was no time to flirt and have clandestine sex acts, no time for him to get stoned and have us make out, no time for anything. There I go again. I just can’t let the past lie. I just can’t admit the possibility that I will be alone for the next year. Until I’m 20. TWENTY. Holy god. I never thought I’d be twenty. As a child, I had a horrible social life and I had no friends. For years and years I planned to kill myself after I got older if it didn’t get better. It did get better, but it never got as good as I wanted it to. I feel like Jessie in ‘Night Mother. But I’m not as old as Jessie was. If I’m thirty and still feel like this, there will be no reason to go on. I’m burning a CD with lots of Garbage on it. I used to be really into Garbage when I was more depressed but I kind of got sick of all their songs. It would be nice to get back into them.
I just went to the website and Garbage is coming out with a new CD in 2005! That’s kinda cool. I’m so fucking bored. Maybe Godot will come tomorrow.
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> Angelfish – Suffocate Me
> White Town – Your Woman
Yet another post where I complain about the problems I create. If only I’d been more mature in high school. If only I’d done this instead of that. Then maybe I wouldn’t be alone. Eh, fuck it all. What’s the fucking point? Why bother agonizing over this bullshit? Eh…I can’t make myself believe it. I’m still living in Royce fantasy land. I had a bit of an insight today. I realized why we never went out. We never saw each other, so there was no time to flirt and have clandestine sex acts, no time for him to get stoned and have us make out, no time for anything. There I go again. I just can’t let the past lie. I just can’t admit the possibility that I will be alone for the next year. Until I’m 20. TWENTY. Holy god. I never thought I’d be twenty. As a child, I had a horrible social life and I had no friends. For years and years I planned to kill myself after I got older if it didn’t get better. It did get better, but it never got as good as I wanted it to. I feel like Jessie in ‘Night Mother. But I’m not as old as Jessie was. If I’m thirty and still feel like this, there will be no reason to go on. I’m burning a CD with lots of Garbage on it. I used to be really into Garbage when I was more depressed but I kind of got sick of all their songs. It would be nice to get back into them.
I just went to the website and Garbage is coming out with a new CD in 2005! That’s kinda cool. I’m so fucking bored. Maybe Godot will come tomorrow.
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> Nine Inch Nails – The Mark Has Been Made
> Placebo – Passive Agressive
> Daft Punk – Musique
Finished my Drama essay and turned it in to Turnitin.com, I’m happy. I also printed out the seventeen pages of internet resources that I used for the paper. I skimmed most of them and used certain parts that I thought were the most poignant, but I did too much research. Well, I guess you can never do too much research. I’m hungry. I did a shoddy job. Well, I like everything but the end. I didn’t do a conclusion. And my wrists hurt. I couldn’t figure out how to get to the part of that one website where it says whether you plaigarized or not. It didn’t put any marks on my paper, so I guess I was fine. That site is so lame. But yeah, I want food. And I want my surround sound system. And my video card. I hope that Xoxide.com loses my order again because when they do that they refund your shipping charges, and that’s like $25. But of course I couldn’t be that lucky. They only lose my order when I buy stuff that isn’t heavy or bulky. Oh yeah, I was making orange juice in the other room. That’s why my hands smell like orange. Strange. I should go drink some, I’m thirsty. I would contemplate watching a movie, but I already packed up my DVD player. I’m sending it to my mom (as I promised ages ago) since now I have my video card that has TV-out. Well, I will have my video card with TV-out (my current Godot). I’ll have it Tuesday. And the Tuesday after that I get paid. So that will be pretty cool. I have to pay my insurance with most of my paycheck of the 30th, but I will still be able to buy something for myself. OMG!!! I just realized that I will be able to play that one scene from the Matrix where they shoot up the lobby IN SURROUND SOUND. OMG. I need to change my shorts now.
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> Letters to Cleo – Awake
> Ohgr – Earthworm
> Dandy Warhols – Bohemian Like You
I’m almost done with my paper. I’m at 800 words, I just need to find a way to stop now that I’ve gotten going. Why did I start this post? I don’t remember. Oh well. I got Lisa to agree to watch a movie this Thanksgiving ! Woot! I think that I will force them to watch Run Lola Run. I hope Tawna and everybody come over, but they probably have other things to do. This weekend was really depressing, but in a way I’m glad that I didn’t hang out with people, I never would have gotten my Drama essay done. It’s 6:30. I can totally get my critique of a live performance thing done tonight too! Woot! I’ll be ahead of the game. I am using a lot of material from people that aren’t me in my drama essay…I’m afraid of plaigarizing. But like, if you cite everything, it’s not plagiarism. And I am meticulous with my citations. I think I’m going to make a Word document and fill it with all of my resources (since we have to attch them). Okay, back to work. Must finish.
“Truly great madness cannot be achieved without significant intelligence.” –Henrik Tikkanen
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I’m almost done with my essay, I’m not sure whether I should e-mail it to Molly. I think that would be weird. But yeah, I had promised to post the website for that one program that uses your computer (when you’re not using it) to process how proteins fold. It’s great for people who leave their computers on all the time, because it like allows you to help scientific research and stuff. Anyway:
http://www.stanford.edu/group/pandegroup/folding/
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