I don’t know how I find this stuff. First, here’s the apathetic blog entry generator:
http://www.brunching.com/journalgenerator.html
and then this sarcastic rating of Spider Man’s powers:
http://www.bookofratings.com/spiderpowers.html
and then a cyborg name generator:
> Elastica (their self-titled CD)
I haven’t listened to Elastica in like, forever. Mostly because it brings back memories of last January. Memories of my fake love.
I called that guy a few times…too many times…and I kept getting his voicemail. I don’t feel like leaving my number. It’s too personal. I’ve barely talked with him online. I’m not leaving my number. But with a few more hours of boredom, maybe I will.
I made brownies tonight. Not that I like brownies–I don’t, but my dad made brownies the day before and they were DISGUSTING, so of course I had to make a delicious batch to spite him and to further demonstrate my culinary superiority over him. Well, I did go to the store to get sugar and walnuts (he paid, I didn’t have any cash). I guess I didn’t just do it to spite him, I felt sorry for him. He’s really old and he had a bad day with the whole heating system thing. It’s weird how he’s so old. He’s almost sixty. He’s going to get to the point soon where he won’t be able to do things, and I’m going to have to take care of him. That will be depressing. Hopefully he can hold on until after I’m done with college and gainfully employed. I hope my brownies are good. I didn’t try them, but they look delicious (for brownies, that is). God I’m tired. And bored. I cleaned up and redecorated my room a bit, took down the caution tape around the top of my walls. It reminded me too much of high school. God I hated high school. But I guess there were some good times. I also put up a bunch of records on my walls, ones I bought that I didn’t like. I also found this one record that I thought I’d lost, Toni Carroll Sings Hits From the Roaring Twenties. I love the music of the Twenties, it’s so… I don’t know what the word is. I hear that record and I just picture all of the opulence of the twenties, the flappers, prohibition, the mob…it was the American dream. Well, at least the garish and vacuous dreams of Hollywood.
It reminds me of the sixties, where the world was promised weekend trips to zero-gravity dance clubs on the moon. But it never happened. The realities of war and poverty just don’t allow such worlds. It sickens me that half of the US budget is going to the military. What if we switched half of that into medical research, or into aerospace research? We would have astonishing breakthroughs that just might get us closer to our dreams of designer drugs and interstellar party ships. But no. Nobody was ever practical enough to indulge in the opulence that everyone secretly wants. Oh well. So it’s a cool record. And I’m glad I found it.
I read Becky’s last post, but somehow I couldn’t comment on it. I wanted to say something like “We’re all dead inside.” but that wouldn’t have conveyed it at all. I feel exactly how she feels. There’s just…nothing. Nothing but the suffocation of existence. Greed, hate, lust…they all just drive us on. There can never be peace. Oh well.
I jogged today, either I’m getting addicted to endorphins or I’m a Greek at heart. I’m such a Greek. All that “sound mind in a sound body” crap. I’ve been drinking tea all day. I was happy to say that the caffiene really assuaged my athsma during my run. Shit, the power just flickered again. I might lose this. I just put it into a text file. I’m putting off calling that guy. I don’t feel comfortable calling him. But I should…I mean, it’s not like he’s going to go away…and since he lives here, I’m sure to see him and have it be embarrassing. I should just get it over with before the power goes off again. I’ll put on some Massive Attack and do it. I mean, if he is some crazy stalker he’s going to find me anyway.
Something has gone wrong with the central heat, and my dad is very very angry with it. He’s being so funny. It amuses me to see him curse and such. He can’t fix it. Oh well. I’m reading Boing Boing, this really cool blog, and learning all kinds of cool stuff. I love how I don’t need TV to get news. I love how I choose the news I see, not multinational corporations. I love how the Internet is decentralizing everything and making information so easily accessible. Oh brave new world with such computers in it!
Omg, I’m reading some articles on www.downhillbattle.org and I’m finding the coolest things, people have put up solar powered wi-fi systems, and are using them to share music. I love the future. I hope it’s about twenty years or more before World War III, then we will have the coolest toys, and they will all be decentralized and such. It will be so cool.
