Monthly Archives: March 2005

Monster, Johnny Depp et al 0

I just watched this movie called Monster with Charleze Theron and Christina Ricci…it was SO moving. I never thought I could get so into a character that couldn’t be more different than me. It was amazing. Five stars.

Then I was watching A Nightmare On Elm Street, and Johnny Depp is SO FREAKING HOT! He must have been like 17 or 18 when it was filmed. De-freaking-licious. But anyway…I’m very annoyed that I had to come back into my room to blog this. I can’t wait to get my laptop.

ennui 0

> Iggy Pop – Nightclubbing

I guess I’m depressed or something. I’m simply existing. How revolting. I just read the first fifty pages of A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genious. I should check my e-mail. I e-mailed that dude from work about the website. I need him to change the hosting service, the other one sucks balls. Nope. Nothing. I’m so fucking bored. I could go to Wal-Mart and buy something…

Nah. I need to spend my money on my new computer so I can be überlethargic and blog from my bed. I’m so fucking bored. And so tired of this place. I’m going to be here forever. I was checking out the transfer requirements and I’m going to have to be here for a hell of a long time. I need 60 credits. Currently I only have thirty or so. So another two years? My dad isn’t going to spring for that. Hell no.

He made me do the dishes tonight. That really fucking pissed me off, but I just listened to some music on my mp3 player and indulged in violent revenge fantasies.

One word: cockroaches.

I don’t think he’d really mind too much though. He’s retiring this year. He’s almost sixty, if he isn’t sixty yet. My parents are old. I need to finish college. I need to get a real job. At least it was sunny today, though. I went outside and lounged in the shade while I talked to my mom on the phone. I also pet my cats Lucky and Sukiaki. And I pet the dog a bit too. I guess this is the world that Ballard envisions, a billion people with part-time jobs and nothing to do staring into the oblivion and ennui of the twenty-first century. I guess that’s why I’m so big into all this technology shit. The rosy outlook of companies like Google and Apple, so deeply ingrained into the priveleged society of exclusive 4-year schools and summer homes in New Zealand. I’m an outsider to this whole world of terrabyte databases, gigabit networks and beautiful young people with incredible minds to match.

I’m the lower class in a society that pretends to not have classes. I won’t be friends with the beautiful, intelligent programmers, graphic designers, and artists I see in my fantasies. I’ll be serving them coffee at Starbucks. Goddamn life is depressing.

sunk costs 0

I love how I learn something in a class and then I’m reading a blog and they make a reference to it! Thinks like “crossing the Rubicon” and “Methinks thou doth protest too much.” Today it was something I learned in Economics, “sunk costs” from the weblog of Nat Friedman.

“I had to put the book down for a few days after that, but picked it back up in the end because the sunk costs were so high, I couldn’t bear not finishing it.”

I love being smart!

omg! surround sound! 0

I just found a firewire Dolby Digital 5.1 thingy! I can’t wait to get a laptop.

5.1 orgasmicness!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

I just found a part of Apple’s website where you can get an educational discount! The PowerBook I want is now only $1500!!!!!! Holy freaking crap that is cool. Off to eBay to lower my price. W00t!!!!! I can’t wait to enter the age of the Mac.

go fuck yourself 0

I just got home and checked my e-mail and there was a question on my eBay item (my computer) so I was all “hmm…what could this be?” and it was the mean, snippy little message.

“You are asking way too much for this… Clean up your wire management… Numbnuts”

Every single item I’ve listed on eBay I’ve gotten a mean “question” on it. I swear, there must be people that go around criticizing other people’s items. “Yeah…that teapot…I wouldn’t even use it if my grandma used it…wiener face! Hahaha”

Get a fucking life, dipshit.

But anyway, I was a good boy and I called up the eye doctor and was going along with everything fine until they mentioned that they weren’t a participating provider for the insurance my dad is on, so it would cost upwards of $200. I didn’t ask whether that included the glasses. So we’re back to square one. I had an okay day at work, I worked really hard and I was on top of everything and my graphic is coming out tomorrow, so yay!

Oh, I don’t think I blogged about last night. After art me, Joe, Tawna, and Naiya hung out and listened to Nine Inch Nails (Joe likes NIN, which of course makes him übercool). We hung out at Pebble Beach for awhile, me and Joe were sliding down the handrails (it was SO fun, but I cut my hand on some rusted metal). After that we went to KidTown and hung out there for awhile, Joe and I were swinging on the swings talking about computers and Naiya and Tawna hung out kinda near the entrance. After a while, these losers from the high school showed up and we all huddled behind one of the towers and spied on them, it was funny. After that we dinner at Denny’s (I had French toast–yum!, and then we went and hung out at the pier. I raced Joe to the end and he totally beat me by a yard! So of course: rematch. I took off my boots and then we were so close it was a tie. We talked about a bunch of stuff: relationships, slow and fast-twitch muscles, autism, older people not “getting” computers, the pace of technology, etc. At the pier we really started to notice the fog: it was SO thick.

Tawna was tired, so we dropped her off (I saw Tawna’s mom and dad today when I was walking, but anyway) and then we were off to Endert’s Beach to see if we could get above the fog. It didn’t really work at all, but it was SO cool up there. You couldn’t see anything: not the city, visibility was like fifteen feet or so, if that. We walked down to the Endert’s Beach campground, but there was nobody there. It was really cool and creepy because of all the fog and such. After that, we came back up and drove to Naiya’s house to drop her off. We went towards the casino afterwards, but then we saw a sign for Stout Grove, so we were all “what the hell, let’s go.” We drove for about fifteen miles down this windy pothole-ridden road with the giant redwoods on all sides, it was so cool. After a while we started seeing houses and then we were in Gasquet. It was really strange. We took 199 back to town, it was such a strange experience with all the fog, the streetlights looked all futuristic, Joe was saying how it looked like Blade Runner. When we got to the college it looked extremely like that movie, all we could see were the lights. But anyway, but this time it was around 3 a.m. and we had to get up early so after a moderate amout of conversation we parted ways.

I bought a canister of hair dye after work, I noticed yesterday that my roots were hanging out. I wonder how much money I have. Hm. $41.17. and $300 in my savings. I like those numbers. I bought $20 worth of gas today, and I’m going to spend $13 on this extremely rare Gregg Araki movie that I found on eBay. But I get paid on Monday so I’m going to be fine. I’ve made up my mind to stash almost my entire paycheck this pay period on the bank in anticipation of buying my PowerBook. Yes, I put my computer on eBay for waaaay too much money, but in the back of my mind I didn’t want to sell it cuz it’s my baby *cuddle with my Navarre* Okay, I’m done. But yeah, the PowerBook I want is $1700, so if I sell my computer for even as low as $1000, I really only need to save up $700 And with my tax return, I only have to save up $550. Sweetness. I’m going to be living extremely frugally (except for the motherfreaking gas) which I am addicted to. So yay. Only a few more months. My mantra will be frugality. I’m going to work on downloading those songs for Josh which will net me $50 and I have no clue what Matt C. will pay me for the website. Even if it’s only like $25, that’s still a tank of gas (well…for the moment).

ghost in the names 0

That’s strange…I think someone is slipping me Orwellian messages through this
list of names I’m typing. Already I’ve seen “Anthony Burgess” and someone
with the last name of “Eurasia.” Weird.

computer pictures 0




not a good decision 0

I listed my computer on eBay for $1600. I don’t know if this is a good idea. If it sells, I’m buying the 12 inch PowerBook. If not, I’m only out $5. I’m excited!

computerness 0

Curses. Gas is up to $2.39. I just called the one in Smith River, it’s $2.32 there. Not worth seven cents a gallon to drive up there. Evil. I’m determined, however, to use as little gas as possible. However, living out in the fucking middle of nowhere it’s very hard. No more frivolous trips around Crescent City. I’m going to be methodical in my frugality. I want a laptop so bad! Maybe I should just get a Mac Mini and a giant flat panel display (like this one which I drool over). I don’t know. But I have months to scheme. I was just thinking…I could sell my current computer on eBay or something to get the funds for my new one. I wonder. Could I do such a thing? Get rid of my pride and joy? I dunno. Maybe towards the end of this year. No. I couldn’t do such a thing. I have spent too much money on this damn thing to abandon it now. All the Windows programs I’ve paid money for (Nero 6 and Norton Internet Security especially). I just don’t think I could do such a thing. Perhaps when I have more money I could think about it. The Mac Mini of my dreams is about $1200, not including a monitor. But at least it wouldn’t become as obsolete as fast as the base-level iBook. I wonder how much I could get for my computer.

Okay, here’s my dilemma. I want a portable computer. But the thing is, if it’s easily portable then it’s easily steal-able. I mean, that ViewSonic monitor that I want is worth SO much money, but it would be so easy to walk off with. I would love that Mac Mini, but it would be so easy to walk off with. And jeez, the laptop is the easiest of all to walk off with. Well, I think that as my new computer fund burgeons, I will grow more and more tired of Windows. The only thing I think I would really miss is MusicMatch. But I mean, all I really use it for is playing random songs, iTunes could do that fine. I guess I’m just afraid to jump into the whole Mac thing without knowing what I’m getting into. I wonder how much I could get for it. I think I’ll go to Dell and customize a system that’s identical to mine. My god, PCs are cheap! I could get one for $300! Man.

Okay, I customized one that’s almost like mine for $800. But mine comes with a cooler video card, a cooler case, an extra DVD-ROM drive, Nero 6 Ultra Edition and Norton Internet Security 2005. I’m thinking $1400. Damn, that’s a lot of money. I don’t know if I trust eBay enough to sell my computer on it. I dunno. I’ll have to read up and see whether their protection policy covers items that expensive. I know they charge a certain percentage for a listing too. Hmm. Whoa, it’s only $4.80 to list my item! Dude!

I’ll have to give much more thought to this, but it’s looking like the way to go. The only sacrifice will be my surround sound system. I wonder if there is a USB surround sound module, that would be cool.

Hmm…there is no surround sound support for Mac OS. Oh cool! I found an external USB 7.1 surround adapter. Sweet. Okay, I’ve decided. First I’ll find a suitable box and get all the packaging material ready, then I’ll take some sexy pics of it (I’m sure I already have some on my hard drive), then I’ll list it on eBay for $1400. If it doesn’t sell, then I’ll list it for less. That’ll end up being about $900 for my Mac Mini and however much else will go straight to the bank account. I like this idea. I wonder if anyone would buy it. I find myself heading to eBay. I’m writing the description for my computer. Omg. I can even get a Powerbook! Weird!

Okay, I think I’m going to price it at $1400. If it doesn’t sell, all I’m out is five bucks. Okay, must search my hard drive for old pictures of my precious and upload them to my website. This is so fun!

omfg 0

I’m finally done with that fucking story. Oh my fucking god that took forEVER. I’m posting it on my fiction blog shortly. Fuck fuck fuck that took SOOOOOO much effort and I feel like it sucks. Oh well.