Monthly Archives: May 2005

computers and finals week 0

I’ve been so busy with finals week that I just haven’t had time to blog. I went up to Brookings yesterday with Joe to give Martin back all the rest of the stuff he left in my car. He was very appreciative, but I still didn’t get to see his boyfriend that me and Ben think is hella hot. OMG, I found out yesterday that Martin totally lied about how old he is. He’s 16, not 19. And he’s a high school dropout. That’s sad.

I really don’t want to go to work today, I’m so tired. But I did my speech yesterday — my final one. I got a 95%. It was a speech to convince that digital rights management was a bad thing. I have been saving and saving and now I have enough for my iMac. It’s very strange. However, my car is probably going to eat up all of my savings and I’ll be back to square one. I was really thinking about getting a Power Mac instead of an iMac, because it’s two processors instead of one, but I really want a portable computer and I guess I’m willing to sacrifice some performance for portability. Anyway, I have to leave in 10 minutes so I’d better get going.

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Published:
May 17, 2005 – 10:49 am
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By A.

Blue 1

I just watched Krzysztof Kieslowski’s Blue. I really don’t know what to think of it. It was powerful, I’ll sure say that. I must see the next one in the trilogy.

I’m feeling a bit alone right now. I gave Martin a ride up to Brookings today. He didn’t say much. We’re almost exactly the same age, but I don’t know anything about him other than that. He’s taciturn, unlike me. I stopped at Dairy Queen on the way up for a dipped cone, and he called his friend on his cell phone. A moment later he was hopping in the car with her to go see some retarded movie and his stuff was still in my car. I’m done with entertaining the possibility of loving him. It was a puerile attempt to assuage the endless loneliness of my life.

Triple word score on that last sentence. I always intellectualize when I’m trying to talk about my feelings. It’s a defense mechanism. I need to do my work. I need to write my outline for speech. But I can’t. My wrists are fucking killing me. How my going to work tomorrow? How am I going to work this year?

I’m going to lose my job. I’m never going to find anybody to love. I’m going to get AIDS. I’m going to die alone.

And none of it will matter in the least.

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Published:
May 15, 2005 – 11:35 pm
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By A.

fuck fuck fuck 0

I just wrote a fucking hella long blog post using voice recogniton but I couldn’t get it to fucking copy and then my comptuer randomly turned off. MOTHERFUCK. It’s days like this I just want to take a fucking baseball bat to this piece of shit machine.

It’s a feeling worse than death when you’ve spent what seems like hours to painstakingly organize your ideas and then like that they just go to shit.

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Published:
May 15, 2005 – 3:25 pm
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By A.

Edward 0

I had a video chat with my mom now that she has DSL, and she had to have Edward say goodbye to me.

I’ve been talking more with the Martin guy, he seems kinda cool. He’s job-hunting today.

Oh, I totally played DDR for like two hours today. I’m so exhausted. I should take a shower.

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Published:
May 14, 2005 – 3:41 pm
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By A.

would you like a cigarette? 0

> Scissor Sisters – Lovers in the Backseat
> Kylie Minogue – Come Into My World (Fischerspooner remix)
> Fiona Apple – Criminal

Aww, I heard this song and immediately thought of my friend that’s moving away. She lent me the CD like ages ago. The Scissor Sisters are totally the sex.

But anyway, I’m talking with the Former Roomate of Doom (Martin) online, we’ve been IMing like all night. He’s actually quite locquacious when he’s on IM. We’re obviously both horny and talking about sex in hopes that something will eventually happen. He strikes me as really needy though. But I’m secretly hella needy as well. Perhaps it would work. It’s not like I have anything better to do, perhaps this will mediate the tedium of my life during the summer. Oh I love this remix! W00t. I totally fucking liked Kylie before she made it big in America and I had to stop liking her. :(

OMG! I just found the coolest guy ever!

http://www.myspace.com/squadofrobots

I just want to msg him and be all Clarissa Explains It All is the fucking shiznite! EEK! And he likes UCB! There are cool people in the world!

Well anyway, I should get back to chatting. Btw, what happened to Fiona Apple? I’m too lazy to Google it.

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May 14, 2005 – 4:36 am
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By A.

lol 0

This random guy is talking to me online–he’s supposed to be Patrick’s boyfriend. Lol, it’s the funniest thing, he’s a Christian. LOL! It just goes to show you, there will always be dumb people. It’s actually very comforting. When we pollute the world so much that civilization collapses, all the Christians will wait in their houses for God to give them a new planet. And they’ll die. *big smile*

I dedicate this post to imbeciles everywhere.

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Published:
May 13, 2005 – 10:47 pm
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By A.

what a day. 0

Well, it was kinda a great day. I woke up late, but I did my graphic today and it was flawless. Usually it’s a period of revisions where I take a printout to my boss and he tells me where he wants to go with it, but this time he just looked at it for a few minutes and was all, “Good work.”

I love my new computer at work, but since we’re transitioning from Mac OS 9 to OS X, we’re having all these random glitches. But luckily *crosses fingers*, they have only happened to me a few times. Maybe I’ll coin the term “rolling server blackouts” if it’s still happening into the summer.

I went to the college to return Joe’s calculator to him (I noticed it in Selena’s car last night), but inexplicably he was nowhere to be found. His car is here too, which makes it all the more perplexing. Well, it’s only a quandary because I was starving all day and just had a big meal at Josh’s house of a bowl of Crispix, a container of lunch meat, and a banana. Now my blood sugar is surging and my brain just can’t handle it. I emailed the cool guy from CC with a blog, but he didn’t respond. I was almost tempted to go to the liquor store to see what he looked like, but I want to maintain the mystery. Anyone that writes such mordant social commentary on Crescent City deserves a medal.

On my earlier journey to find Joe, I ended up going to the Drift office. I fumbled with the key, and the door opened. Amanda’s voice echoed out of the dark room: “They changed the lock.”

Great. So Throgmorton has really won. He changed the locks on the Drift office without even a second thought. The Drift is now dead, and the only thing left is Amanda hiding inside its rotting carcass.

Now there is no opposing voice for Throgmorton’s rediculous ideas, and nobody “in the know” to dissemenate his mental abortions either. Depressing. Well, not for me, cuz I graduate in a few more semesters. To everyone else: it sucks to be you. Have fun in your ’50s themed student lounge and cleaning toilets with your hospitality and tourism certificate.

I blame everyone.

There is no you.
There is only me.

I think I need to go play some DDR, even if I can’t find Joe.

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Published:
May 12, 2005 – 5:58 pm
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By A.

new computer 0

I got my new computer at work, and it’s pretty cool. Even though it only has a 400MHz processor, it runs pretty darn fast. And it has OS X. And 1GB of RAM. And I have my OWN scanner, so I don’t have to run over to the other person’s desk that has a scanner to use it while she’s away. But anyway, I should probably get to getting ready for work. Oh yeah, I finally got my ergonomic mouse and it’s like a dream. I worked on a graphic for like five or six hours yesterday and my wrist didn’t hurt at all! It was ubercool. Now the only thing that gives me pain is typing. I should next get an ergonomic keyboard, but they are hella expensive.

Me and Ben hung out with Selena and Misty last night, it was really fun. We put on cleansing face masks and scared Misty and then we all ate some Fruity Pebbles. It was pretty fun. Oh, and Josh told us last night that the Psycho Roomate of Doom is leaving, and he was all expecting things to just go back to normal. Gee, he didn’t listen to my advice and put me through all this unneeded stress on finals week, and then after he drives to Grants Pass and has the realization that it was a mistake, then I’m supposed to feel sorry for him and be the best of friends again? Fuck that. I have better people to hang out with than those that will just fuck me over at the drop of a hat.

Oh, I registered for classes yesterday right on the exact minute that I could register. I got all the ones I wanted. Mouhahahaha. I’m taking Psychology (which me and Ben and Selena and Misty have vowed to take together) and Biology with Dr. Mize. I’ve already taken Bio, so it should be a fun review. Okay, off to work.

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Published:
May 12, 2005 – 10:34 am
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By A.

Amanda’s Blog 0

The article about Amanda and Tracy finally came out in the paper. Tracy resigned. I really don’t believe it, mostly from Amanda’s complete and utter lack of credibility. Since she started her nervous breakdown with the whole fetal position in the bathroom banging her head against the wall thing (circa last semester), all she ever wanted was for everybody to give her attention. Now she is the center of attention and she is going to milk it for all it’s worth. To help me cope, I am posting links to all of Amanda’s old blog entries. Feel free to browse the lunacy. I don’t care enough to comb the blog entries for anything incriminating, but if you hate her feel free to.

http://www.retroviral.net/blog/amanda/05.txt

http://www.retroviral.net/blog/amanda/06.txt

http://www.retroviral.net/blog/amanda/07.txt

http://www.retroviral.net/blog/amanda/08.txt

http://www.retroviral.net/blog/amanda/09.txt

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Published:
May 11, 2005 – 8:25 pm
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By A.

new mouse 0

I finally got my new mouse, but they still haven’t charged my credit card. I’m not going to complain. I’m playing DDR. I went over to Josh’s after work but neither he nor the roomate were there. I called a few minutes ago and they still aren’t there. I was supposed to do this big project at work but my computer wasn’t working, so I have to come in early tomorrow and do it. I think I’m going to have to blow off Creative Writing again. I’d better at least stop in and give my teacher my story revision and my quizzes.

Supposedly the tech guy is going to set up my new system (a G4, but better than my current setup) with OS X. I hope it’s Tiger, but it’ll probably be Jaguar. I’m preparing for all the strange maladies that we’ve had in the office with the new operating system. For example, our server connections will just randomly go down. It’s SO annoying. That’s the biggest problem. Okay, back to playing DDR. I really need to study for my speech, but I’m lazy. And I have to do these retarded quizzes that I could do in my sleep. And I need to do another exercise for creative writing. I think more DDR is in order. My dad finally told me today that he plans to move to Klamath Falls if the house sells.

I don’t really mind too much, I’ll just move in with Selena and Misty, they said it was OK. And I doubt Josh would let me live on the streets either, even though it would mean I would have to befriend the Mute Roomate of Doom. Okay. DDR. Now.

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Published:
May 10, 2005 – 7:39 pm
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By A.