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I have done things that should make me very happy, but it’s all just hollow. I realized a few days ago that that one night that me and Ripley and Selena and Misty and Joe and Ben and everybody played tag that I was so amazingly happy. That was the happiest I’d been in a very long time. I had somebody that loved me in the boyfriend way and all my friends that are always so cool and loving, especially Selena and Misty.

I realize now that I’m broke that I spent about $100 distancing myself from Ripley breaking up with me. Well, at least it’s sort of taught me a lesson. I’ve been really missing him the last few days. Today I beat Paranoia, the hardest song on Dance Dance Revolution. But it was hollow. I wanted to immediately call Ripley from my cell phone and express my glee. But we’re broken up. We haven’t talked since the last night. I blocked him on AIM. He probably blocked me too. But yeah, I love my new cell phone. It is so fucking cool. It has voice-activated dialing, a flashlight, and a bunch of other cool crap. I gave my boss the number today.

I just feel empty, ugly, and alone. But I guess that wouldn’t really be much of a change, now would it. I must seem like such a depressed person to people who only know me through my blog. But I have actually been having a lot of fun lately. Me and Ben went to Fred Meyer two days ago and tried on sandals and gawked at video games and movies. We attempted to look at the clothes, but the selection was so pathetic (as usual) that that didn’t really take up too much time. It was pretty fun. I think after that we went back into town and hung out with Selena and Misty.

Last night Joe came over and we installed half-life two on my computer. The game engine was so incredibly realistic, I could barely believe my eyes. Unfortunately, first-person shooter games require you to use the keyboard for movement, something that I can’t do with my wrists the way they are. I would also need another stick of RAM to get it actually perform at the titanic resolution I jacked it up to.

After that we watched Mulholland Drive and (as is to be expected) were completely confused. It was his first time seeing it, I must have seen it 10 or so times. It just gets more inexplicable the more you watch it. But that’s David Lynch for you.

I couldn’t stop thinking about things I didn’t want to think about today, so I went out and took some pictures. Enjoy.

Oh, there is some lingering stuff on my memory card. Me, Selena, Misty, Ben and Royce had a bonfire a few days ago at The Slaughterhouse near Endert’s Beach. It was pretty fun, we all ate too much.

On the way, driving in Selena’s sexy car:

Horrible picture, but obviously not taken by me:

Me and Ben stopped to see the sunset on the way back from Fred Meyer. Well, that was after he convinced me to speed. I got up to 100 mi. an hour in my car. It was interesting, to say the least. I’m totally never doing it again though.

OMG! The jellyfish!

So I guess I do have fun. I shouldn’t mope at all.

I took a bunch of cool pictures today. I need to Photoshop them. Now.

I just beat Paranoia today.