This is the life. Making homemade hot chocolate with soymilk and watching Star Trek: TNG. I wish I could share the hot chocolate with Misty. As much as this might make me totally broke, I really want to move out. I mean, what other toys do I need? I have an iPod and a sweet computer.
Categories: Happiness
I don’t think I make enough money to move in with Misty and still keep my car. I should tell her tomorrow.
Expenses now:
$95 – car insurance
$50 – transmission payment
$50 – high-speed Internet
$90+ – gas (calculated for only going to work and back)
$300 / month
Expenses living on my own:
$140-ish – rent
$95 – car insurance
$ 50 – transmission payment
$50 – high-speed Internet plus bills
$21+ – gas
$50-ish?- food
$395
Wow. That would leave me with all of five dollars of disposable income. And a slow week or two at work would totally ruin me. And no toys. I’ll have to go over my figures with Misty though, cuz I really don’t know how much the rent would be or how much the bills are. And maybe my insurance would go down since I’m driving less. I’ll go to Progressive.com and quote the change. Hmm, results were inconclusive. I’ll call them tomorrow. I really want to do this, but I feel like it’s going to be way too expensive and I won’t be able to pay for my classes at CR next semester. Fuck. It’s 4 a.m. I never stay up this late.
Misty and I watched Faceoff. It was really predictable and lame. She fell asleep halfway through as always. I went home. We’ve hung out almost every day this week. I need to sit down with her and go over the numbers. Tomorrow perhaps. I’m totally doing the passive agressive thing about Matt’s website. Fuck it. I just don’t care. I never did to begin with, but back then he was paying me. I should tell him that. Can’t think of a way to word it. I regret buying this expensive webcam. I should have gotten a scanner instead.
Categories: jamais vu,Melancholy
OMG! My iPod is shipping tomorrow!!!! I’m so excited!!!!! EEK!!!
Categories: Happiness
Tonight I went over to Misty’s house again, mostly because she had some incredibly interesting gossip to tell me! I’m not sure if I can publish it, so I will err on the side of caution for today. We went to Safeway, and she got the ingredients for this delicious cucumber salad that you eat with crackers, then we settled in at her house to watch the end of Sleepless in Seattle on TV. We had talked yesterday about her not really liking foreign movies, so I brought over two of my favorites, Run Lola Run and Amelie. We started watching Amelie, but she fell asleep halfway through it. She falls asleep halfway through every movie we watch at two in the morning though, so I couldn’t really bring myself to hold it against her. I turned the movie off at about 2:30, because I realized that I wasn’t even halfway done with it and even though I adore the movie I really didn’t have time for that deliciously twisted plot to unwind itself. Perhaps I should watch it when I get home from work tomorrow. I need a pick me up. But I have devoted myself to making serious headway on Ulysses tomorrow. Perhaps I can do both. I’m about a hundred pages in, and I’m not really getting Ulysses. Maybe there isn’t anything to get. I guess I’ll know by the end of it.
For some reason, my dad deleted the message on the machine that was supposedly from the college, so I’ll never really know whether it was legitimate or not. I was even going to record it onto my computer and post it. Oh well. Like I really care. I’m going to sleep.
Categories: übergossip!,Ennui
I just got an e-mail from my web hosting company telling me that the server that hosts my website is directly in the path of Hurricaine Rita. How weird. It might go down when the hurricaine hits Texas. Cool! I hella have everything backed up, so I’ll see how cool the company is.
I got my cool WebCam today! It’s SO great! During my audio/video chat with my mom, my camera had incredible resolution and color depth, and hers looked really bad…like there was a tank of water or something in between her and the camera. Well, you get what you pay for. And I paid for sexiness. I attempted to do a video post, but it didn’t really came out as cool as I wanted. I don’t think that my computer supports USB 2.0, that’s probably why My motherboard’s manual gives all this lip service about eight USB 2.0 ports, but there is nothing in the device manager about it. When I get my iPod I’m sure the software will tell me whether my system is USB 2.0 compatible.
Anyway, I must get to the gossip. Somebody left a message on my dad’s answering machine claiming to be from the college asking why I wasn’t taking any classes this semester. I haven’t listened to the message yet, but I will once my dad goes to sleep. I think that it’s faked. Why would the college do that? They don’t even mail in grades anymore. It’s probably one of my enemies. And I will soon know. I can tell if it is Kelly or Dan (the people that work at the college, not my cousin and her boyfriend who oddly have the exact same names). So of course I immediately told my dad that I’m taking classes in Brookings, but it was quite unnerving nonetheless. Now I want to go listen to that message right now, but I shouldn’t. I’ll just get all agitated and I want to enjoy my evening. If the iPod gods shine on me, my pod could ship on Friday!! I’m trying to get myself to not go and change my order to expedited shipping for $10. My accursed bank charged me at $10 transaction fee because I guess I went over my balance, but that’s totally not true. I looked at my online banking and no transfers were set to go through that would have done that. I think there just ripping me off. So I’ve decided to keep $200 in there at all times so this bullshit doesn’t happen again.
Me and Misty hung out yesterday, quite randomly. I had gone to the library to check out Ulysses and was reading when all of a sudden I got hungry and decided to see if Safeway had any of those delicious focaccias. I walked over, and was trying to decide whether to just go home and eat or to buy the foccacia and stay in town longer, when Misty came over and said hi (I guess she was grocery shopping). We caught up a bit, but she had to go back to class soon so we decided to meet at Circle J later. I bade her farewell and read by the beach until it was time to walk over to Circle J. I had this real horrorshow pastrami sandwich and John was there to take our order. When he dropped it off at our table he said that I should come over more often or something to that effect.
I guess it was Providence (Hawthorne uses that word every fifth sentence, why can’t I?) had brought us together, and we had quite a bit to talk about: mostly the topics were incredibly funny behavior at Misty’s birthday party which I had missed (who pees on ducks), my concerns about how strangely Ben seems to be acting lately, and Misty’s situation with Selena. Also, she basically invited me to come live with her, and I accepted, of course. I wonder if I will really follow through. If I ditched my car, living in town might save me quite a bit of money. I’m not sure though. She has to talk to somebody else that she promised it too. And of course we would have to sit down and go over the specifics of everything (adding up and dividing bills and all that fun stuff).
I also set up a Yahoo 360 account. It was so dumb, they only allow you 300 letters for your favorite books/movies. Only a Neanderthal could fail to come up with more than 300 words worth of good movies or books. But I do feel hella hardcore that only one other person on the whole site listed The Hacker as one of their favorite musicians. And nobody listed the glorious carbon-copy club anthems of Lacquer. I’m so alternative now. Not.
Well, I think I’m going to delve back into my novel. My handsfree mouse is freaking out today and I don’t know why…perhaps it’s the multitude of devices with LEDs attached to my computer. The device tracks infrared radiation sources, which LEDs are.
Categories: Gossip
I’m having an audio/video chat with my mom via my cool new webcam! Technology is so fucking cool.
Categories: Ennui
I have a bit of stuff to talk about but I’m tired cuz me and Misty stayed up late to watch Secretary. I’ll fill you guys in later. Started Ulysses today. It’s really trippy.
Categories: jamais vu
I do my best thinking what I’m chatting. For example,
(regarding meeting a blogger that both me and Amanda have read for a long time:
A: It would be random though… Like “Hey I know you – except not at all!”
Me: yeah… I haven’t seen enough television with that as a plot to know how to behave
A: I love you for that line… please tell me its original
Me: it is
A: you rock so hard
Me: I’m totally blogging that
A: DO IT!
So I did.
And:
Jeff: its funny that we have been e-friends for such a long time, when we are wildly different people
Me: lol
Me: really? How are we different?
Me: were both just lines of text on a screen
Me: I always wanted to write a sci-fi novel where a guy at realizes that all of the people he talks to on the Internet and on the phone are just machines
Me: and that he’s the only one left
Me: but I’m sure it’s been done
Jeff: i think thats what i was getting at…moreso than us in particular.
Jeff: the internet facilitates anyone to be who they want to be. and talk to who they want to, while in “real life” things are completely different
Me: yeah
Me: I probably wouldn’t think twice about talking to you if we actually met somewhere
Sometimes I get the feeling that we only invent these new mediums of communication and data interchange in order so that we can grapple with the consequences of them, and that a future generation will spend generations eliminating technology from their lives just for another hundred generations to bring it all back. I don’t know. I talk about the implications of the Internet all the time and the Internet is like my religion but I really can’t see as many positives as I would like to about it. Perhaps when we have universal translation technologies and we actually can talk with anybody in the world, maybe it will turn us into one “global Village” but right now I feel like corporations are just going to take over the Internet like they took over television and took it away from the viewer.
like I always say, freedom means responsibility. And people don’t want responsibility. Sheep will always be sheep. And the intelligent people of the world are doomed.
Categories: Ennui
Today I set the picture of the iPod I just bought as the desktop background both at home and at work (that is, until it arrives in the mail). My computer at home had the photo of the iPod displaying photos, and they happened to be of San Francisco. With my formidable Photoshop skills, I replaced the album with one more suited to my remembrances of my last trip to San Francisco. I was going to put the one of Ben kissing this random guy (which is a much cooler pic), but I thought he might be offended. Enjoy:
Categories: Happiness