> Silence - Larmes

I’m thirsty, I have a headache, and I have no idea what I did today.

I vaguely remember making tacos and watching the Daily Show. I remember arguing with my mom about me deciding to move to Eureka. I remember laughing until I coughed my brains out watching the Colbert Report. I remember downloading some French ambient electronica, as I’m listening to it right now. I remember telling my dad’s girlfriend about Brian.

Everything is obscured by this haze. Maybe if I get more sleep it will go away. I read more on Ubik, not much else has happened. I searched for some jobs online, but didn’t find anything too promising. I’m getting sick. I’m feeling ineffectual, poor and depressed.

My dad is going to be gone for two weeks.

I don’t know if I can manage.

I feel so alone here.

I hung out with Kevin yesterday, but it still feels like I haven’t left the house in months. My mom is right. I’m completely unprepared to move to Eureka. If I go job shopping, I’m going to have to put my current job on the application because it’s the only one I’ve ever had. Did I mention I’m in a terrible mood? I haven’t been eating right and I’m sick… it doesn’t make for the most scintillating posts.

Well I’m going to get to bed before I fall asleep.