The Diary of Antoine Roquentin

> Nine Inch Nails - Gone Still
> Cut Copy - Going Nowhere
> Suzanne Vega - Tom’s Diner (DNA Remix)
> Massive Attack - (Exchange)

Why do I even bother to sign on to Myspace when I get messages like this:

” I am in need of a boyfriend and, thought maybe you would be interested. Message me back! ”

From people like this. I swear, he looks twelve.

Anyway, I shipped the Darius Machine today. The money for my new system is in limbo between PayPal and my bank. I hope it will arrive tomorrow. This typing thing is killing me, I want my new system.

And my tablet won’t work on Linux without extensive hacking. You have to like, rebuild the kernel (computer open heart surgery). Fuck that. This is why I use operating systems where you plug things in and they work. OSX. Windows. Not Linux. Well, I’m going to use linux on a file server that I’m going to build, but like for everyday stuff…OSX or WIndows all the way.

Don’t get me wrong, I love Linux…but it just has a few more years to go before I would actually consider using it. I had this big checklist of things that I didn’t like (i.e. things that should be simple but are extremely difficult, like installing my tablet), but with every new release they fix more of the bugs. I will love Linux eventually, but now I can only admire it for what it can do.

I’m still sick…I took a bunch of DayQuil and now I’m not sneezing as much, but the sinus pressure is coming back. Being sick is so boring.

Is it weird that I keep hitting “refresh” on my online banking? Everybody from the company is probably at home. Well, maybe they have offices in India or something. That would be cool. Yay for near-slave labor if it gets me my money faster.

I was SO stressed out last night, I couldn’t get to sleep…my computer was on and running that disk wipe program (which finished by the morning, erasing my data to Department of Defense standards). Also, all that debauchery with Royce was really screwing me up. I didn’t know what to do, so I took a candlelit bath. It was rediculously relaxing. I must have been in there for hours. Thankfully, I was able to sleep and I have been stress-free ever since (except for my scary zombie dream). Well, I’ll get to zero stress when that money gets into my bank account. And to subzero stress once my Mac Mini arrives. *refreshes online bank page* Aww.

I always have dreams about zombies, but it’s only when the zombies can move faster/as fast as me that they are nightmares. Usually it’s just me and some other random character Kelly/Mila/Trent killing off all the zombies, but tonight I was the only one there, and I got over this big chain link fence and there were all the other zombies on the other side already. It was sort of scary.

I have no clue what I’m going to do today. After this post I’m going to shut down the computer so I don’t destroy my wrists. Royce has been calling me today, apparently he was crank calling Kevin and he got all pissed off. I thought the voice he used on the calls was hilarious. I kind of want to call Kevin and then possibly have Will walk me through the whole kernel rebuild thing, but I’m still very very tired and my wrists hurt. I’ve driven into town twice today, and that’s enough, especially with gas at $3.92 a gallon.

Well, I just need to waste time until 6 p.m., then my mom has her free cell minutes. Oh wait…there’s a version of Skype for linux! Duh. I’ll call her right now. Yay for $.02 per minute long distance!