Monthly Archives: May 2006

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So much life-drama…is that even a word?

Quick overview:

Grammie said I can live with her

I’m giving notice Monday

I’m going to get my passport tomorrow for me and my mom’s tentatively planned trip to Switzerland

Was listening to a Gary Numan album (The Pleasure Principle, 1979) and found out that NIN’s “Metal” was a cover of a song by him, and that Basement Jaxx’s “Where’s Your Head At” uses the same melody as one of his songs.

I swear, after 1989, no new music was made. Ever. It’s all just a cover of a cover of a cover of a cover.

So there.

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I love this comic!

This one is classic.

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Maybe it’s a reflection on the state of my life that I absolutely can’t wait to use the new dental floss and moisturizing soap I bought today. Hmm. I’m now going to brush my teeth and take a shower.

But before that, (thirty minutes or so) someone commented on my video I posted a while ago…the video of The Beautiful Douches.

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I’m stressed as hell and I can’t seem to get to sleep.

Nobody’s online and I’m caught up on all the blogs I read.

Kill me now.

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I just wanted to say that I’m obsessed with this cute new band called Cursor Miner.

They sing this really poignant song called War Machine. I never post lyrics on my blog, but these were so political I had to make an exception:

I painfully typed them up on my keyboard:

in the bad old days of war
killing used to be a chore

now there’s just a switch to flick
oh so easy, oh so quick

it’s an executer toy
from my office i destroy

the numbers of the dead amount
to numbers in my bank account

numbers in a war machine
pixels on a radar screen

sitting in my war machine
killing never felt so clean

klling once upon a time
blood and guts, gore and grime

nasty bits invisible
now it’s all gone digital

we can watch you in the night
transmit you by satellite

doesn’t matter if you shout
your suffering is filtered out

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> ABC – How To Be A Millionaire
> Happy Thought Hall – Get Happy
> Goldfrapp – Strict Machine
> Crossover – Apple on a Stick

I finally got Dragon NaturallySpeaking to work in the virtual machine!

Obligatory screenshot!

Dragon NaturallySpeaking running in a VM!

It’s pretty slow because I don’t have enough memory, but my processor usage is only at about 10%, so I think it would totally fly if I had enough memory. It’s actually running at around normal speed now, it just takes forever to load up and I have to quit all my other programs to give it it room.

So now I can totally delete my Windows partition! W00t. I won’t do it, though…this software that I’m using now is a beta version and it’s about 40 bucks (which I totally don’t have right now) for the final release.

I’m listening to all these cheesy eighties songs from the party monster soundtrack. I have the hiccups, and my software has no clue how to interpret them, so this is taking twice as long. Maybe I should hold my breath?

Today I had that apocalyptic conversation with my dad that I was dreading the whole week. He said that time’s a-wastin’ and I had better get started with moving if I am to continue with school. He also said that he would give me some money to enable me to leave. I don’t really trust him, but if I give notice at my job (which I’m going to have to within the week), he is going to have to give me some money or I’m going to be here forever.

I’m going to talk to my mom in the a.m., and then with some perspective from her I’m going to give notice tomorrow.

I must confess: I have been obsessively watching Seinfeld lately. I don’t know why… it seems completely contradictory to my personality that I love sitcoms so much. I think my brain is freaking out about leaving and I’m clinging to any bit of fantasy that I can absorb.

I talked to Kelly tonight about our future… she’s cool with me moving down there. This is going to be like the biggest move of my life. Half of me wants to march in there tomorrow and tell my boss that I’m going to leave. Maybe I should just do it and get the hell on with my life. What do you think? Was it cathartic to leave your first job?

I’m on the threshold of the rest of my life, and I don’t know what to do. I applied to American River College today, I just have to go in and take those placement test things. I can’t believe I’m saying this. But I hate Crescent City. This isn’t exactly the best planned end to my hell, but it’s chance to get out.

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I’m leaving Crescent City.

FINALLY

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I’m rocking out to a song (by Crossover) whose chorus is “Apples on a stick.”

I love Dada.

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> MC 900ft Jesus – But If You Go
> Keoki – Crash
> theSTART – Dirty Lion
> Tricky – Abaddon Fat Track

Maybe it’s because I have nothing better to do then surf the Internet for hours, but I have been noticing a scary trend in American politics: this country is becoming a police state. Now that may seem an extreme position, but everything I read is just making it more paranoid.

Example one.

Last night I stumbled across the Wikipedia page on automatic number plate recognition.

There is this area in London where every single car’s plate is automatically logged…

And then I made the mistake of reading the article on mass surveillance.

“Amongst the western democracies, the United Kingdom is perhaps the country subject to the most surveillance. [...] In 2004, it was estimated that the United Kingdom was monitored by some four million CCTV cameras, some with a facial recognition capacity, with practically all town centres under surveillance.”

Apparently Holland and Germany have the highest levels of mobile phone tapping (over 10,000 numbers tapped between them).

And in America, the government is resurrecting the TIA (total information awareness) program with a new moniker, MATRIX (Multistate Anti-Terrorism Information Exchange). This database will do exactly the same thing, combining thousands of databases of anything from credit card purchases to phone records in some vain hope of identifying terrorist activity. I’m probably on their list, since I bought 1984 and checked out Mein Kampf from the library.

And then today I read this article that said that the FBI basically told Internet telephone companies (like Skype or Vonage) that they will be able to shut down their service unless they build the FBI backdoor into their system to enable wiretapping.

What kind of country is this?

You know, I used to think that technology was going to liberate the people from the rich, but it turns out it’s just the opposite.

I always used to think that China was this repressive hellhole where no one was able to do anything, but after talking to Phoenix, I know that’s not true. It’s just like in America you can’t be a Muslim without fear of being whisked off to a secret prison to be tortured, and in China you can’t advocate democracy without the same fate.

You know, I have a lot of respect for the Chinese. The government may be repressive with a terrible human rights record, but at least they are honest about it. If you are dissident, you get locked up and they throw away the key. In America, we dance around chanting democracy and liberty at the top of our lungs while we bow down to those in power and let them ignore the Bill of Rights and declare random wars as an excuse to not divulge anything about their operations.

We’d better brush up on our Mandarin. In 20 years, China’s going to want their money back. And all the $30 DVD players in the world won’t save us.

The Bush administration and the multinational corporations have succeeded: government has unprecedented, unlimited power over its citizens with no checks and balances or due process, and Americans are now poorer than ever, with an eroding middle-class and a system that makes it near impossible to secure the basic necessities of life: in education and a place to live.

Kudos to Stalin, Mao, and Hitler.

At least they wouldn’t pass the “Patiot Act” to take away your rights and send you to a “Freedom Camp” to die.

I don’t believe in any sort of divine justice, so there really is nothing we can do. The rich get richer, and the poor get screwed. Well, at least I can say this: thousands of years of recorded history, and all we want to do as a race is try to control each other and destroy each other’s lives. Yay for the human race.

Days like this I feel like becoming a survivalist… but I don’t think I would get the Internet in some World War III shelter. It all goes back to that article about Kraftwerk’s lyrics.: expressing “the paradoxical nature of modern urban life — a strong sense of alienation existing side by side with a celebration of the joys of modern technology.”

I just want to shut Pandora’s box and go back… but that’s childish. We’re stuck with it all… the endless databases of our call records and bank statements… burgeoning towers of security cameras with plate and face recognition.

One of the commenters on the FCC article said it best:

“An armed insurrection against a govenment that can shut down your bank accounts, tap your phones, read your email, track you down with FLIR [Forward-looking infrared], etc… is wishful thinking.”

Technology has succeeded in making guns obsolete. I don’t know whether this is scary or a wonderful moment for mankind.

One thing’s for sure. We will soon be living in a brave new world unparalleled by anything created by Huxley or Orwell.

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Check out this 360 degree view of the new Manhattan Apple Store.

the Manhattan Apple Store

Three words:

32-foot.

Glass.

Cube.