I’m here wasting time reading TUAW before my first day of work. I didn’t get a whole lot of sleep, but it was the night before a big life change so I didn’t expect to sleep wonderfully. Well, it’s 9:31. I should get going. I SO wish the stereo in my car worked…the jack for auxiliary input (my iPod) broke off in the last week. I ordered a FM adapter, but it’s not going to show up for at least a week or so. :(
Well, I should go. Wish me luck!
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I fixed my first flat tire today.
This complicates things.
But at least it wasn’t the engine that was making that flap-flap-flap sound when I drove.
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AND I’M LONELY.
:(
I don’t think Adrian likes me any more.
I don’t know if I like Adrian any more.
It’s a sad state of affairs, I’m afraid.
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people who are mean to me
people who can’t get along with my friends
people who manipulate my emotions
people who are self-important
people who think they are the only people who can be pretentious
people who steal
people who think everything has to be about them
people who are controlling
people who make arbitrary demands and say that I don’t love them if I don’t give in
people who can’t just chill out and have a good time
people who are in no control of their emotions
people who say cliche shit like “don’t touch me” during a fight
people who get jealous of anybody I talk to
people who like Limp Bizkit
Yeah, just had to throw that last one in.
How could I have not seen this?
I should have listened to Becky, oracle of my life.
If nothing is going to change, it’s over.
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> OK Go – Return
> Vangelis – Rachel’s Song
I have my comfort food spread out in front of me: a bowl of mint chocolate chip ice cream and a blueberry muffin.
Adrian and I had a really big fight today.
He doesn’t want me to go see Massive Attack because it reminds him of this one time when his ex-boyfriend Tod went to go see a Bjork concert and left him alone after they’d been in the same apartment together for months.
Um.
I just got off of the phone with Kelly, she has enough relationship woes for the both of us.
The good news is: I GOT A JOB!!!!
The job is that that news magazine downtown that I interviewed at earlier this week! It’s $12 an hour and I start Monday.
I just don’t know what to think.
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Hey, I wonder if this damn thing works. It does! It does! For some odd reason, I am back in my voice recognition program. I had a whole bunch of things to talk about, but now I I can’t quite remember them. I did end up finding my cell phone charger… actually, Adrian found it. And in the same place as I had looked earlier. We are hanging out of my grandma’s house, and I have uploaded all of the pictures that were lying around on the camera. There are some from the trip to Chico, and some from Ansell Hoffman Park. Due to a bug in my uploading software, they are not displayed by date taken. I’m thinking of e-mailing the developer later today. I was supposed to go to IKEA with Christen this morning, but for some reason my phone never rang and it just never happened. However, she has the bed now and I’m thinking of going over their later tonight and using me and Adrian’s man muscles to assemble her bed.
It’s two more days until my interview at the magazine. I have sent a few more resumes off, but have had no responses. My car barely made it to Davis last night to pick up Adrian. However, I put a whole bunch of oil in it today and I’m hoping that will make it run a little bit better. My current theory is that the people wrote the wrong date to have my oil changed on the little sticker, because I got it changed right before I drove down here and it’s been almost three months. Did I mention that Adrian got a job? I’m pretty sure I did. He starts in a few weeks. I’m going through the job papers today and doing a bit more Craigslisting before we head on out, but I’m really hoping I get that job. I don’t think I really want to work in journalism as a career, but that’s pretty much all I have expertise in and it makes a good story for potential employers that I’m going to college get my journalism degree and such.
Today I’m burning all of the files I used for the project I did for Molly onto DVDs so they are off of my hard drive yet still in existence if they are needed sometime in the future. I’m out of blank DVDs though… and I really don’t feel like driving to RadioShack. Or anywhere, for that matter.
We spent last night in Adrian’s basement. I know, that sounds Byzantine, but it was not bad at all. We had slept there a few times before, as there is a door to get into it which doesn’t require access to the main house. Adrian’s dad did a really nice thing and rearranged a lot of the clutter in their so that we could have a comfortable place to sleep if we needed it. I’m going to help him take some of the more environmentally dangerous things (like a few old CRT monitors, two microwaves, and an ancient laser printer) to the dump or recycling center later in the week. He’s supposed to e-mail me the information. Also, he says he has a lead on some layout projects using InDesign that could potentially be lucrative. Since InDesign layout is one of my specialties, it seems a natural fit. I’m supposed to bring over my copy of InDesign and see what is to be done. I’m also supposed to draft a paragraph or two about my experience with layout. I think I will do it after I finish this post.
For the first time in a while, I’m feeling hopeful. My car might not be destined for death this month, might have a job soon, and maybe I will even be able to afford a laptop.
This virtual machine software that allows me to run my voice recognition is the first piece of software I’ve actually paid for in a very long time. Let’s see… what software have I actually paid for? I’ll make a chronological list:
MusicMatch Jukebox (Windows) – $25: I had a music library of about 1000 tracks which had no ID3 tag information, so I couldn’t organize them by artist or album or anything. MusicMatch had this service where he would automatically look at all your songs and tag them, and that was definitely worth $25 for me. Also, since that lookup feature was a connection to their server, it was impossible to find a serial number that hadn’t been banned. Also, I may have been using the Pro version for a long time before I actually bought the license.
Trillian Pro (Windows) – $25: Don’t get me wrong, I like Mac OS X. But there is really no multi-service (Yahoo, MSN, AIM, etc.) chat client for Mac that is as versatile as Trillian is for the PC. Adium, the program that is the leading multi-service chat client for Mac works great when you are just using text, but it does not support video at all. To do that, you have to use iChat and you can only do it with others on AIM. I used Trillian on my PC for about a year, and for the most part it was great. The people who make Adium are working on voice and video implementation, so someday it will be there… but not yet.
SuperDuper (Mac) – $30: for those of you who don’t know, this is a program which allows you to make an exact copy of everything on your computer and then restore from it later if your computer dies (sort of like Norton Ghost for Windows). Every night, this program copies my hard drive onto an external USB drive, so I always have two copies of my email, photos, etc. in case my computer explodes or something :)
Parallels Workstation (Mac) – $50: this is the program that allows me to run Windows in a virtual machine. The only reason I need Windows is that my voice recognition software runs it. Parallels was in beta for ever, but it works now… and I snagged it for the early bird price of 50 bucks. It now costs $70.
Synergy – (Mac) $5: this is a cool little application that shows this translucent display of what song comes onto iTunes. It also has a bunch of features that allow you to control your music library using keyboard shortcuts that work in any application. It also allows you to control iTunes from the menu bar. It’s useful when you are listening to a new album in the background and when each new song comes on you can remember the name of it using the little translucent display.
Delicious Library (Mac) – $25: I have talked about this one whole bunch times. You can make this cool little virtual library of all your books and movies scanning the bar codes in with your webcam.
Jungle Disk (Mac, Windows, Linux) $.02/month or so: this is software and a service. You can use the application to mount a virtual hard drive on your desktop and drag files onto it that are absolutely essential. They are copy to Amazon.com’s “ultra reliable” servers, so you won’t lose them even if somebody steals your computer and your backup drive.
I don’t know why I had to write this little roundup, but I wanted to understand the reasons behind me purchasing software… after years of being poor and not being able to.
Well, I guess it’s time to go. If I had a laptop I would be able to write more posts on the road, but I’m just not that affluent yet.
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“When it comes to sexuality, turtles are no slouch. I’ll never be the same again!”
“I saw this one immoral turtle screwing the other one *hissing noises* with his mouth open. I mean, they show the male turtle but they don’t show the female turtle. That’s sexist!”
“I just…never saw turtles fight before! I guess that’s what I get for watching Channel 13.”
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> Massive Attack – Angel
I’m feeling kind of odd this morning. I keep turning around and looking for Adrian, but he’s not here. I got a message from him at around 2:30 a.m. and tried to call back a bunch of times, but just got his voicemail.
Last night was so odd…I went over to Kelly’s house to fix Christen’s computer (and to take my mind off of the reality of not seeing my boy for a while) and we ended up getting drunk and blasting The Downward Spiral. I ended up (at around beer three) marrying Christen and her date (which, since I am a minister, carries some degree of legality :). After that, we got one of our sober friends to drive us to Trauma, this incredibly lame but fun Goth night thing at Country Club Lanes. Me and Christen were a few sheets to the wind, so we just thought the whole thing was amusing as hell. There were like three people there…this one that looked like a wannabe Marilyn Manson; this one in black jeans, a black t-shirt, round-rimmed glasses, and long black hair; and this other one in a manskirt and faux vinyl corset. They were taking themselves so seriously with all the goth dancing and we were just tearing it up and having a great time! I was the king of the pop-lock and we were inventing dances well into the night. It was SO amusing, I wish Adrian could have been with us.
Me and Kelly walked down to the store to get some smokes at some time in the night and we had this great conversation about relationships and what everything means…and on the way over to my house I saw this car that reminded me of Joe, so I left him a message and he called back later in the night. I’m supposed to call him today, but one complication is that I think Adrian has my phone charger. I tried calling him on Skype this afternoon, but just got voicemail again. I think his phone is dead…but so is mine. I’m going to go over the car with a fine-toothed comb (and perhaps vacuum out all the muffin crumbs in the passenger seat) and hopefully find my charger. So if you’re reading this, Adrian, I’m not ignoring you, my phone is just dead! <3
Right now I can’t stop listening to Massive Attack…it’s all I can do when I’m feeling pensive.
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