I went to sleep really early tonight, and of course, I’m awake at 2 a.m. the only reason I woke up was that I was thirsty…and then of course I had to check the UPS site to see where my smartphone was and then there was an e-mail from an old friend that I was moved to reply to… and of course a whole bunch of downloads had finished. I’ve been talking with Adrian’s cousin this week and he has such impeccable taste in music (so does Adrian). He turned me onto a few bands that I’m in love with. Here are some of the new bands I’ve been listening to:
I just downloaded Beams by The Presets, which Adrian’s cousin recommended, and it’s so great!
The Knife (discovered mostly through other people on last.fm with similar tastes) - very, very odd synthpop
Shiny Toy Guns (discovered, oddly enough, through Katie) - very anthem-like songs, and of course the wonderfully danceable “Le Disko”
The Postal Service ( Adrian.) - jury is still out, I haven’t listened to the whole album yet
Lady Sovereign (my friend Mark) - She is so adorable! I’m hooked on her single “Love Me or Hate Me,” even though it’s rap (which I rarely listen to).
I Am X (the singer from the last Sneaker Pimps album’s solo thing…discovered from user kissandswallow on last.fm) - this album is an acquired taste and has a few good songs… it was like Splinter, the last Sneaker Pimps album, which was bad except for the first few songs.
CSS [Cansei De Ser Sexy] (last.fm and they played with Ladytron at the concert) - really addictive, simple songs with catchy lyrics.
Death From Above 1979 (from the CSS song ” Let’s Make Love and Listen to Death from Above”) - hard, metallic guitar songs with great lyrics
Röyksopp - (from last.fm users with similar tastes to mine) - slow, syrupy sweet synth-pop with oddly intelligent lyrics
Christmas didn’t turn out so bad after all. I got about $200 (the cost of my shiny new phone and then some), and a great present from Kelly and Chris. I was feeling really down until I played some Dance Dance Revolution on my computer, and it reminded me of all the fun times me and Joe had and it made me really happy. I’m going to kill two birds with one stone…I’m saving up for that hella expensive (but also super-high quality) $300 dance pad from Cobalt Flux.
One thing that really sucked about this Christmas was that I didn’t get to see Adrian at all. I miss him SO much…:( I’m hella taking the bus to go see him tomorrow.
Oh dear, it’s 12:30.
Should get to sleep.
I think my dad is leaving in the morning. Where the fuck does he have to go? He’s fucking retired. It’s just a copout so he can reneg on the car deal.
I can’t sleep. I tried, but couldn’t. I bought Adrian a Christmas present online…listened to some Crossover…my wrists hurt and I want tomorrow to be over. I feel oily and revolting. I’ve been endlessly reading about my Dash. I can’t wait…it’ll arrive Wednesday. It’s the only thing that can pull me out of this kind of depression.
I won’t be able to answer calls on the train or anything…wearing a Bluetooth headset just screams “mug me.”
I don’t think my dad is really going to help me get a car. I’m going to ask him to leave me a check and I’ll just work it all out. He probably won’t.
I had a long talk with my aunt Kathy tonight about how fucked up the family is…and I can’t sleep. I can’t do shit. I just want tomorrow to be over. I want everything to be over. I hate being poor and cold and rained on and endlessly waiting for shit and excluded from everything.
I’m sick of this shit.
And I fear that I’m going to flunk out this semester because I don’t have adequate transportation.
1) The prospect of getting a car seems more and more unlikely as my dad is unwilling to pay the market value of any car.
2) My stupid drunken family members won’t leave and there’s nowhere I can go to escape them since I have no car.
3) Kelly isn’t going to be over tonight because Grammie says we “don’t have enough food.” It’s such a copout. Fuck them all. She has more money than God. The least she could do would be to get another fucking turkey.
4) Today sucks because I’m probably not going to see Kelly or Kathy, the only family down here that I really give a flying shit about.
5) I can’t get presents for anyone because I have no money.
6) Did I mention I hate my family?
Can’t we just call the whole thing off?
Man, I’m so depressed I’m buying my smartphone. Now.
I finally went through the incredibly tedious process of making my voice-recognition software work again. Long story short, I had upgraded to version eight, but was not able to go back to seven when the trial ran out. I feel pretty sick this morning… and I’m not quite sure why. I guess I should have some breakfast.
My new Bluetooth headset came in the mail yesterday, and it is incredibly cool. When I pair it with my Mac, I’m able to get crystal-clear reception all over my room (meaning I can talk via Skype or iChat wirelessly), and I also am able to even get reception all the way the kitchen. When I walk too far away to get reception, as soon as I come back it is automatically reconnected, as opposed to other ones I’ve tried where you have to re-pair it if you lose connection for even a moment. It’s so great not have to hold the phone up to my face for hours… that really irritates my wrists.
It’s Christmas Eve and I somehow have to magically get everyone presents. I feel extremely selfish lately… I didn’t get my Christmas cards and in the mail in time, and I haven’t gotten a single person presents yet. For one, I’m broke, and for two, it takes two buses full of larcenous poor people to get to the mall. Eh, I can’t make excuses.
My other cousin Michael is here as well… and I feel hesitant to leave my room. There are just too many people here and Kelly is nowhere to be found. I remember every holiday I would come down and immediately disappear to Kelly’s house and we would all have crazy antics and drama and Crash Bandicoot… I feel like that part of my life is dead.
Oh yeah, yesterday we went to Matthew’s party… it wasn’t really a party, it was more of the gathering… one of the boys there seemed utterly surprised that no one was paying attention to him. I love that “I’m a pretty twink, everyone look at me” attitude. Also, I don’t have much respect for Matthew’s taste in music, and it’s really hard to get into a party with everyone rocking out to John Mayer *puke*. Bring on the Nails and Ladytron, bitches.
All in all, I would have to say was a pretty fun outing. I drank Sprite with coconut rum and we watched Lewis Black (my personal God) and a bunch of YouTube videos on Kevin’s laptop. After everybody went home, me and Adrian stayed the night at Matt’s (as it was in advisable to drive home at like 3 a.m.). The next morning we surfed the Web for a while and tried to wake Matt up… then we all ate some pot roast that we had put on the crock pot in the night before, left the house, got Starbucks, and he dropped us off at our houses.
I spent most of last night playing with my Bluetooth headset. The family got pizza and we were all watching Entrapment… that retarded movie with Sean Connery and the T-Mobile chick. I ended up putting Babylon 5 on my iPod and watching it out there. I’m realizing how much I absolutely hate my drunk loser uncle John. He is SO like that scene in Family Guy where Peter starts the group for the advancement of fat people:
He makes those fat guy sounds ALL DAY LONG. They are so loud they drown out the TV.
Anyway, I woke up at like noon and I still haven’t really left my room… I guess I think that if I boycott Christmas it just won’t happen. I’m embarrassed that I don’t have presents for anybody. I should probably call Kelly and see what the hell is going on.
Oh, did I talk about the car shopping? We went to the Roseville auto mall like two days ago… those salespeople are SO shady. I think my dad and I made a great team though… we absolutely refused to sit down at the table where they wheel and deal you… at one of the dealerships the guy would not give us a quote unless we sat down, so we called his bluff and just walked out. He went from having all the power in the situation to having no power at all… it was masterful.
At the end of the day, we went to check out one of the cars we saw on Craigslist, a 2001 Hyundai Accent with 57,000 miles on it. It was a really nice car, but the guy wants 5,000 and my dad doesn’t want to pay 5,000. The Kelley blue book of the car is like $5,100… the guy is not going to take $4,000, like my dad wants.
Well, I should probably go out into the living room and socialize… I need that damn car.
