So here I sit at True Love bored out of my mind and watching this couple? out of the corner of my eye arguing about something. It reminds me of some of my dramatic exes, and it makes me dread the thought of being in a relationship…but still, as I was walking here this adorable guy in tight pants with an iPod walked by and I was all “how can I be single?”
All day (with the small exception of observing this adorable guy with an iPod Nano on the train), I was thinking “Me and Christen are NOT freaks for being single.” But I can’t stop thinking of all the benefits of dating. As I was thinking that, the cute gay couple across the room started having a formulaic Adrian argument, one guy proposing things to do, the other being completely silent.
Hell no, I thought.
I had to get out of there.
I am now at CSUS waiting for my bus, after a few hours of wandering around downtown talking to Patrick on the phone and taking pictures.
I like the downtown area, in many ways it fulfills my fantasy of living in a real city. But the “crowd” that I feel like I’m looking for just isn’t here. The gang is gone, for now at least…maybe forever, and I don’t want a bunch of trashy drunken fags for friends…I felt so incredibly alone at True Love.
I guess it all comes down to what me and Christen were talking about last night. How does one meet people in this day and age?
I just don’t know any more.