is all about how hawt Christen is:

With no clue of the amazingness to come, I spent Saturday cleaning my room and talking to Alex on AIM. Something amazing happened, though. While I was cleaning I uncovered from a pile of clothes that old computer case that I bought right before I moved. I have been in the negative to the tune of 30 bucks for about three days, so I thought I would post on Craigslist. Like magic, in two hours a guy was at my door with 50 bucks in cash. The thing was worth $100, but I needed the money now. And who knows if the people who say they’re going to show up really well. I might as well have taken the first offer.

So I drove down the bank, deposited my money, and I was back in the black. I had been talking to Alex via text message for a while, and as I returned to my house he asked me a curious thing. He’d been talking about looking like crap, and I had been texting him about how that was fundamentally impossible. The next text: “Yes? No?”

He responded that he was in Sacramento. He had talked about going to visit some friends here this weekend, but I didn’t even like imagine that we could meet in real life because that would be too amazing. He said that he was going to go to a party with some of his friends but that if I wanted to make a late night he could maybe stop by. Of course, I acquiesced. The plan was going to be that I would go to to True Love and read William Gibson and meet up with him later, but right as I was about to leave, love of my life Christen called me and invited me over to dye her hair.

It was a really good thing she did too, because he didn’t get to Christen’s until about an hour after True Love closes. Well, we were going to do the hair thing, but all I remember is us sitting around being really lethargic while I played music videos from my iPod that was hooked into the TV. We were sleepily rocking out to Depeche Mode and Goldfrapp, and Christen went to bed (she was hella tired from staying up late with Allen).

I started watching Margaret Cho and fell into a light sleep on the couch. Right as I was drifting off, he called me and was a few minutes away. I invited him inside, not quite sure what to say.

He had just started watching Margaret Cho a day or so ago, and I had talked with him on AIM while he was discovering the wonder and awe that is Margaret, so it was great for him to see her best routine about the persimmons diet. Were both a really tired so we were just sleepily snickering for about a half-hour while we watched her on DVD (I don’t want to send it back, it’s a Neflix DVD). It was so weirdly comfortable to be around him. During the Margaret, we had been doing little things like messing up each others’ hair and such. It was cute. We were talking about sundry things, and I remember this one part where he changed how he was sitting and put his head on my chest and I was holding him..and I just felt like my essence has been set on fire…all those endorphins were pumping…I just felt this tremendous, unstoppable love. I hadn’t felt that in a very long time.

He had to go home at two, and I gave him a kiss goodbye. At that moment, I was not in my body…I was on the sixteenth dimension…it was fucking incredible. I really had no idea what to say.

I had to post a Facebook status update: “I am weightless with awe” before I fell asleep.

This weekend just blew me away.

I mean, I was just going along living my life and then this crazy insane explosion of fun happens. OK. I should probably start at the beginning. I just downloaded all the pictures on my camera for the past like two weeks, so there’ll be copious photos. Hope you enjoy!

OK. The beginning. It all started with two things. One thing was that Christen started dating Allen, one of the main guys that does HorseCow, the famous/infamous indie are gallery that used to be out on West C and 16th. Annie and I would go over there and help them build stuff after they moved to West Sacramento, so we had met before.

We all went out to the Kasbah on Thursday (Annie, Christen, Allen, and I), and we had a great time drinking Sangria and talking.

After that, we went to Una Mas and played truth or dare with Annie’s truth or dare cards. One of the dares I got was that I had to let everyone style my hair. They came up with I Dream of Jeannie-ish style, it was really funny.

After that, we went down to HorseCow and Allen and Steve showed us around the place. We had been there before, but so much work had been done it seemed like a whole new place.

That was a really fun night. The next day, I went to work. I took a picture of my workstation today, for nostalgia I guess. That and I love seeing people’s workstations…I’m weird.

After I got off of work, I met Annie and we (of course) called Christen to see how the rest of the night had gone with Allen after Annie and I had gone home. She told us it was amazing and about this like incredible passionate kiss. We were so excited for her!

After the phone call, Annie and I migrated down towards old Sacramento, and I guess I just felt like there was something there. And there was! This weekend was the Jazz Festival. So we wandered around, got frozen yogurt, and checked out a bunch of the old Sacramento spots that we like. We also scoped out Wilhelmina’s, the bar where the zombie walk will end up. We had the most wonderful afternoon wandering around Old_Sac and the Downtown Plaza.

Annie had a psychic reading and the woman was actually right. It was interesting.

While we were in Old Sac, we tried on wigs at Evangeline’s.

So hardcore. lol

Well, after we had exhausted the area’s wonder, we parted ways. It was uncharacteristically early (like 7 p.m.), but we didn’t have anywhere to put our backpacks (with the new motorcycle jacket I got, the armor can’t be squished down and the thing takes up my entire trunk, where before I could cram in a backpack and my old jacket). I accept the trade-off because it protects me so much better.

I drove home, signed on, and immediately started talking again with Alex. The last week or so I had been talking a lot with this guy Drew, who goes to American River College and messaged me on Facebook saying that I had great taste in movies and music. He has impeccable taste and was turning me on to movies that I hadn’t ever even heard of. However, I didn’t get a real big relationship vibe from him. I mean, I guess there were undertones of it, and I thought he was a pretty cool guy, but I wasn’t tremendously interested in much but friendship.

Drew and I were doing personality profiles a few days ago, and I had logged on to my OK Cupid account (yes, I know, lame, but Christen had met the most adorable guy on it) to find the results of the personality test there, which was the one he was referring to. I had a message in my inbox. “Who the hell could this be from?” I thought, expecting it to be some kind of spam.

“Have you ever…” was the subject line.
Inside, it continued “…been so fascinated by someone.” He wrote that he had seen my profile and been blown away, and his AIM name. it looked familiar, so I checked my iChat logs, and he had been instant messaging me. However, I had thought it was one of the myriad screen names of someone I was avoiding talking to, so I had ignored them.

I wrote back saying that his profile was awesome (which it was), and I was amazed that we had such similar interests. So flash to Friday after I got home from hanging out with annie. I started talking with Alex on iChat. And talked. And talked. We started an iChat AV conference (he is so much more of a Mac geek than me, it’s amazing), and we iChatted for six hours. Until about 5 a.m. We were both snuggled under our covers talking to each other on video. I just don’t even know what to say about him. He is just fucking amazing. We talked about the Sacramento scene, our perceptions of the San Francisco scene… I don’t even remember but it just felt like I’d known him for years.

Oh I remember what we did, we checked the compatibility of our signs. He’s a Virgo, and I’m a Scorpio. Yes, I know, I am the penultimate atheist, but astrology is a fun way to look at things. That and Megan is beyond obsessed with it.

Astrology says that we are extremely compatible. And it sure felt like that. It still feels like that.

After Adrian, I had just been burned up inside. I was ashes. I had gone through everything, I had tried as hard as I could to make it work through force of will alone, and I had failed. But the most amazing thing happened when I started talking to Alex. I could see things begin to grow under the ashes, flowers and creeping vines taking hold in the rubble. The sun came out again, and the forest started to live again. I never thought it could happen. I never thought the winter would be over. But it is. I just feel like my heart is going to explode out of my chest. It’s my worst fear to die inside. I thought Adrian had done it, but he didnt.

I don’t need him any more.

This weekend.

Has been.

Fucking.

Epic.

I’m writing a post right now, but I have to wait until my photos upload and I can restart to use my voice-rec.

But until then, I thought I’d post “Shoes” for those of you who haven’t seen it. We have been obsessed by this video like, all weekend. The video is safe for work, but the audio isn’t.

Here’s Christen being “Kelly,” the character in the video.

These shoes are 300 fucking dollars!
Let’s get ‘em!