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June 2007

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• 06.22.07
  stumbling over happiness Ennui | (0)

  As you may know, I rarely get to sleep before 3 a.m. And I guess this isn't how the rest of the world works. I've been having this horrible sinking feeling that I'm going to have to give up one of the things I enjoy most (being awake at night) in order to have a normal existence a nine to five job. I don't want a nine to five job. I hate waking up in the morning. but I'm going to have to give up everything I love in order to do that. Or at least that's how it feels tonight. Maybe I'm being childish in refusing to give up ...
• 06.21.07
  2007: an ennui odyssey Ennui | (0)

  I'm beyond bored tonight. Nobody's online. And I am trying to ride my scooter as little as possible because the thing is going to die sooner or later. I need to beg my family for money, but I'm just too fucking busy. Oh well. Today was my first day off in what seems like a long time. This class every day takes a toll on you. However, we're getting into a bunch of crazy positions in my yoga class. People made fun of me about it, but oh my god, it is damn hard. You have to get into these ...
• 06.21.07
  Know your face from this blue memory Ennui | (0)

  I hella sayed up until 3 a.m. redesigning my blog. What do you think? I need to hack the CSS to add some color to the text, but I like the layout. I haven't added anything to the sidebar yet, but I'm going to add a bunch of stuff there. I was sick of the old template. Too green! Tonight my big goal was to switch my voice-rec innards from the buggy and never-working Parallels to relatively crash-free (and if it crashes it doesn't bring the whole system down with it) VMWare Workstation. But I got distracted with ...
• 06.20.07
  it’s like some ghetto lion witch and the wardrobe shit up in here Ennui | (0)

  My wrists are killing me and the voice-rec program is dead. I mean, it didn't like die but I don't even bother launching it any more because it crashes and brings the whole system down with it. I can't fucking believe it. I spent $50 on that software and it didn't work. Fuck Parallels. I'm switching all my voice-rec shit to VMWare. Maybe that'll work. It has never crashed my system when I've used it. Well, we'll see once I make the huge (30GB) virtual hard disk that the voice-rec program needs. Anyway, I've been very busy with ...
• 06.17.07
  John died today. Ennui | (0)

  ? - 2007 This is a photo I scanned in ages ago from my dad's family albums. This is John in high school, I suspect. I don't know how to feel about it. I was on the phone with Brian and Grammie came out of her room screaming and crying. "...oh God oh God oh God John's dead John's dead he's dead he's dead oh God don't do this to me..." I felt horrible for her. Even now it doesn't seem real. I called Kelly and told her, now I feel like an asshole for writing that diatribe in my last post. We can't get ahold of ...

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