weightless at 6 ante meridien
by A.
Vector self-portrait. Two hours ago.
I was tired after class and had a headache, so I made the mistake of going to sleep at 9 p.m.
So I had a bunch of dreams where me and the Italian girls went out drinking and then fought off zombies. I dream about zombies most of the time, but these were different. There was fear involved, where mostly I just hang out on the roof with a shotgun thinking that the invasion is the most normal thing in the world.
I miss Terry :(
It’s sad waking up from a scary dream and you’re alone.
I miss the Italian girls.
I miss everyone.
At this time of night it’s hard to believe that the world exists. I feel like everything disappears at 3 a.m. as the Matrix does a database backup.
I was browsing torrents, but now I’m just listening to romantic songs.
Well, I found this cool hack of sorts that lets me get unlimited data on my phone for $20 a month, which isn’t bad. I also need to switch to DSL, this $49 a month shit is just not cutting it.
I know I’ve been meaning to do that for fucking ever, but my grandma is never fucking home and I need the last four digits of her SSN to do it. I hate not being in control of my connection.
I keep reading about how the U.S. is doomed financially with our fucking crazy spending and the looming medicare crisis. I just don’t know where is safe. I just want to move out to the middle of the desert with a huge stockpile of food and water. But then again, that isn’t much of a life. One thing’s for sure: America is fucked. I need to get out of this country as soon as possible.
Oddly enough, that’s kind of the reason that I’m taking so many classes. I’ve got to get my B.A. and get to Zurich before the American economy crashes.
Does that sound insane? Well, George Bush has racked up more debt than all the other presidents. Combined.
And when the baby boomers start to retire and demand healthcare, we are totally doomed unless we change our fiscal policy, but nobody cares. And then in my geology class he’s talking about all the devastating effects of global warming.
Never in the planet’s history have we ever faced such problems. The next fifty years will truly be a test of mankind’s ability to rise above its selfish impulses and preserve the race. I guess we do live in a brave new world. I just hope I get to see how it all plays out.
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I dreamed about you last night. We had a great reunion hug. Maybe it was because we went to that backyard party I took you and A. to last year. It was just the same, and it made me miss you.
Has running from one’s shit ever worked? I feel we in the US are in a current, but even greater looming pile of shit. When there is shit on you the only thing to do is start cleaning it off; face the fact that the shit is there, and move it around. I mean this country IS made up of it’s citizens, and we have the ability to help it move in a positive direction in so many ways. Also like global warming, the US’s shit will just effect everyone. Why not stay and help the place you were born? After all we have been able to reap the benefit of the US’s doings.
An idealized picture is a faulty one. It is from the mistakes that we evolve, and in imperfection is the beauty.