Been working on it for like two years, so…I guess it’s good to have it be done.
I have this MASSIVE canvas sitting over on the dresser, I need to figure out what to do with that one. And my botched half-finished Mondrian reproduction. I need a more precise brush to do the lines with.
So I didn’t mean to do it, but today was the first day I actually paid money for porn. WEIRD. It’s this book about two guys in the 90s exploring the gay sex underworld in San Francisco. I love novels. You can vicariously live through things that people got killed doing. Awesome! Also, speaking of porn, my new favorite site. It’s mostly SFW.
I’m in love with Calvin Harris these days…and I’m enjoying this lull in my life. I get paid tomorrow, finals are next week…finished my painting. I’m going to rest on my laurels at least until Christmas for getting awesome grades…and try not to think about this situation with Brian. I think we both need some time to think about things.
I got really angry when I thought about it, all the ridiculous decisions of his that I supported because he was my friend…but c’est la vie. I like Brian, and I think he’s awesome. We’re just in a weird space now. I feel guilty, he feels slighted. I’ll give him some time and apologize. He needs to realize that this is just the way that things are going…I can’t please everyone. When I was with Terry he kept saying “but are you happy?” and now that I’m in a good space it’s not “are you happy?” it’s “do I approve of your decisions?”
Okay, I’m reading too much into this. Time for sleep.
