The Diary of Antoine Roquentin

We’re all just fumbling in the dark — for a heart of hearts

Category: Ennui

beach house @ prospect park!

I had so much fun tonight! I saw Beach House tonight at Prospect Park with Matt. I’d never been to the Prospect Park Bandshell before, and it was a beautiful venue. They did “Gila” (which was mindblowing live) and a bunch of stuff from Teen Dream. It’s 2 a.m. and I’m just starting work. I [...]

life will be better—I have it here in my mind

Tonight I’m gaying out listening to the new Kylie record. I suppose it’s been a pretty gay night— I went to see a showing of Faster, Pussycat! Kill! Kill! at the IFC Center. I hadn’t seen it since the first time, which was with Sam at this movie night that he curated at the Five [...]

your favorite consciousness

I’m hanging on your words. Living on your breath Feeling with your skin Will I always be here? It’s far too late. 3 a.m. I’ve destroyed tomorrow by staying up this late. It’s my own fault. I can’t even get excited about the idea of watching porn. I was listening to Depeche Mode while surfing [...]

cut and paste is for amateurs, cut-up is for auteurs

I just went through a whole bunch of stuff to theoretically increase the recognition accuracy. I’m not sure if it worked. It’s very hot down here in my room. I would have the fan on, but that interferes with recognition accuracy. I don’t know what it is, but as soon as I sit down at [...]

got to do the night work

My acclamation back to New York is taking longer than I thought. I thought I would be able to slip right back into my old life, but the tiring (but wonderful) weeklong trip to the Shore stood in the way of that. This weekend, even though I had a lot of work to do, I [...]